What if the SA is coming from your spouse?

[robyn709]

I need some help. I've been married for 9 years and have 2 children. My husband within the last 2 years has become increasingly controlling and verbally and emotionally abusive. He is an ordained minister, although we do not have a church.
The control and EA/ SA became heightened about 1.5 years ago when I started my own business. There was a women's conference that I had registered for and my husband said that if I went, I would be out of God's will b/c he (hubby) did not want me to go.
When I got back, the house was tense and the SA escalated to where my husband took my laptop and cracked it on our kitchen counter and broke it to pieces b/c I was not listening to him. (in front of our children).
He has done this twice with my laptops- the second time, he poured water in it and took it outside and banged it on the pavement. He cracked it open once again and threw it in the garbage. Nontheless, I lossed a ton of information.
I have since quit my company and shut it down because I could not deal with his temper tantrums and his manipulation.
I am almost in a state of depression and have no one to talk to. Everytime I try to open up to my husband, he says that I am demon-filled and need to get in the word. Church doesnt really mean much to me anymore and I feel almost empty, like a fighter who can't make it to the next round. We are members of a megachurch in Atlanta, and I dont know who to go to for help.
A few weeks ago, when my husband was on another warpath telling me "what a horrible mom I am, I have no character, I am not saved, etc.." I did everything I could do to only take one Ibuprophen pill. Everything inside me wanted to swallow the entire bottle. I have since placed medication out of my reach.

If there is anyone who can help me, I would really appreciate it. I am completely out of it right now. I am empty...

thanks