Can't sleep and I am so tired~
I am so tired but I can't sleep. I hate this! Part of it is depression and because I want to sleep and then I can't because I toss and turn and can't solve things and it haunts me. The other part is my body aches and I can't handle the pain and don't dare to take any meds. I am so tired of having dreams and needs that are so unfulfilled and it is like every time I am on a journey the doors close up so all I can do is sit. I hate it. I wrestle with where I am at. It is times like this friends are withdrawn from me as well. It frustrates me that God doesn't light fires in the areas of need. I can't take this. GEEKERS INSOMNIA~ Thought maybe getting up and breaking the stupid dream cycle would work and I feel this horrible sadness~!
I hate this I hate this I hate this and I don't want to deal with it any more.
I want to sleep!