When all else fails, STAND

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I have just come upon this sight and I have been reading the messages that everyone posts and it seems nice to just let things out sometimes. Especially to people who are not connected to the situation personally.

For the past year and a half now my husband and I have been trying to overcome trauma of what we call "Spiritual Abuse". We began in this particular church at the very young age of 18 and developed very close relationships with the Pastor and his wife. That were also young. Over the past 7 yrs we became what you would call the "Friends" of the pastor. My husband we above and beyond to "serivce" this man and help with all things. I on the other hand have never and probably will never be one to open up and be available for someone to take advantage of me like my dear husband. I did support what he chose to do " for the ministry".
I am using quotations because these are the reasons that we were told we should do things.

Anyway to make a long story short, the true colors of man have come to the surface and reality is harsh.

I spend most of my days asking God, what and where do I go from here.
My husband has closed up completley. God has let me know that it is my job as a mother to continue to take my children to church and to teach them the truth. But sometimes the energy that is needed to do that is so hard to find.

I truley believe that in life, God allows us to go through things to make us what we need to be for/in him. Every trial and tribulation adds a bit to us that enables us to help someone else in the future.

So, when you can't or don't know what to do, STAND! Because, he will bring you through!

I am standing, waiting.....