Emerging from the cocoon?

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I see myself as a religious addict now. I am , I think, possibly in a cult, and definitely in a spiritually abusive church. I am having rumblings that I need to get out but am not quite there yet. Perhaps there is still some denial, or blindness or addiction at play. The thought leaves me uneasy and afraid. I will return to a solitary life with virtually no friends and social life, as i had before joining.