could use your prayers

[ex-shep]

I am in seething cauldron of resentment and self pity. Pray that I can stay out of it and find healthy ways of recovery.

[dougjb]

Hi ex-shep,
I am sorry to hear about your circumstances, it must be difficult. I will be praying for you.

dougjb
some food for thought

[ex-shep]

I was able to do some journaling on the resentment and self pity. That managed to short circuit things for now.

[luttrell03]

really sorry to hear that. be praying.

[ex-shep]

I guess I am going through the anger bargaining stage of grief and asking why this all happened. I guess all I can do it trust the Lord and have faith he will get me through all this. I struggle for answers.

[Jerry]

Originally Posted by ex-shep

I guess I am going through the anger bargaining stage of grief and asking why this all happened.

Dear ex-shep,,,,
As Dr.Phil so often asks,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,"So hows that workin for ya ?????" Relax this weekend,,,,,,,cook some burgers on the grille,,,,,,go to the beech,,,get into a pickup softball game,,,,do something distracting,,,,,be fresh for next week ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Jerry's Orders

[ex-shep]

Originally Posted by Jerry

Dear ex-shep,,,,
As Dr.Phil so often asks,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,"So hows that workin for ya ?????" Relax this weekend,,,,,,,cook some burgers on the grille,,,,,,go to the beech,,,get into a pickup softball game,,,,do something distracting,,,,,be fresh for next week ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Jerry's Orders

You have a point. I have been able to work through quite a bit of the grief and feel better for doing it. Fortunately I have friends in AA and church who are walking beside me. I have also had some friends from the church back in Texas and friends locally walking through. Tammy, God bless her, has been nothing short of a patron saint staying up with me either on line or on the phone.

Nevertheless one does have to get out the house at some point -- lest things cave in. Fortunately Lake Erie is only a couple of miles away.

[ex-shep]

The best I could do today was go to church, go to a meeting and beat up some old phone books. As the day ended I felt much better.

[Minni]

Originally Posted by ex-shep

The best I could do today was go to church, go to a meeting and beat up some old phone books. As the day ended I felt much better.

I beated up some tires here the other day. I kicked them until the anger was gone. I saw my therapist who said that it might be good for me to find something that I could kick or beat, to get the anger out. It doesn't change me, but it sure helps and I do not get that pissed on my family, because I let the anger out on something else. In the mean time, I seek counselling too.
I think I understand. Maybe it is not a bad thing that you beated up those old phone books. I feel much better to when I can focus my anger and beat something.
Sometimes I needed to hear something crash. Me and my husband bought some very cheap plates, and I broke them, one by one. It was satisfying. Anger is part of the process, and I am not going to opress it, but let it out in healty situations like this.
Love Minni

[ex-shep]

Originally Posted by Minni

I beated up some tires here the other day. I kicked them until the anger was gone. I saw my therapist who said that it might be good for me to find something that I could kick or beat, to get the anger out. It doesn't change me, but it sure helps and I do not get that pissed on my family, because I let the anger out on something else. In the mean time, I seek counselling too.
I think I understand. Maybe it is not a bad thing that you beated up those old phone books. I feel much better to when I can focus my anger and beat something.
Sometimes I needed to hear something crash. Me and my husband bought some very cheap plates, and I broke them, one by one. It was satisfying. Anger is part of the process, and I am not going to opress it, but let it out in healty situations like this.
Love Minni

Thankfully I believe I have finally got through the anger stage. Fortunately I have a whole stack phone books. A general of thumb is as long as the anger is not directed at a person or animal or one is stuck in it, it is OK to process. It beats denial.