Please if you can continue to pray:

[hornblower]

My daughter is sick tonight, she wanted us to come over and pick up her dog and bring him over here and care for him, bring her some soup. We cant do that as we are trying to sell this house I just cant do it!

My husband is beyond worn out. He has this disfunctional guy working there that hassels him and makes life a living you know what for him. He doesnt say much about it because its really making him sick. I remember what that is like.

Then she (my daughter)locked herself out of her apartment and we are the only ones with the key so there we go anyway to take the key to her. Im trying to be tough and make her take care of herself. I got over there and I feel so sorry for her but I went ahead and told her she could drive to the store and get her things. She didnt seem to be anything but really tired to me. Who knows though?

I get confused about all of this. My Mother would never have even come over to let me in my apartment I dont think. My Mom waited on everybody when they were in her home but thats it. She really didnt take care of me ever since I moved out at 17. She was a fantastic grandmom though, baby sat often for us but then we didnt go anywhere that often. I dont know if Im being selfish or not???????????

After all nobody takes care of my dog but me when Im sick. No one goes to get me soup or even a glass of water so?????? Well not often anyway. Oh I just dont know if Im doing the right thing or not..............When we got there she seemed drowsy and I know its from the pain pills she took last night or yesterday.

I know all of you are dealing with much more pressing problems much more serious than this but Im scared for her. There have been a lot of breakins and and quite a few murders of women here lately. Its all over the news, theres no way to escape listening to it all, everyones talking about it. Some shlepp is breaking into families homes while they are there and asleep. Shot one woman in the leg as she tried to run away.

All of this doesnt help me sleep any better thinking about her being over there alone and so helpless.
I did find out that I can call the police and have them call on her if I cant get in touch with her since she is disabled. I will do that next time. It will help them too to know where she lives.

Anyway I would appreciate your prayers. Thankyou anyone, everyone. Im going to try to get some sleep, good night all, I love all of you.

[Janice]

((((((((((((((((Hornblower))))))))))

praying!

[Jerry]

Originally Posted by Janice

((((((((((((((((Hornblower))))))))))

praying!

ME TOO

[peanut]

I praying too, Hornblower. Also praying that today is a better day for you.

Love,
Mimi

[hornblower]

Im going back to sleeping too much again. Staying up later and later at night scared and restless coming here checking posts hoping everything is all love and light again.

Worrying about her thinking Im so awful again trying to help her shopping for her online saving the bags because Im scared to ask my husband for money we dont have.

Shes got a new job and shes hot its so awfully hot here now. Gad you wouldnt believe how awful everybody feels. You just want to find some bathwater to sit in or sleep under an air conditioner all of the time. Its no wonder shes sick. She is always getting sick.

I have a sin in my past that makes this whole thing more understandable about her. It never leaves me alone just sitting there waiting for the next thing to happen so it can pester me over and over again. YADADADADA!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO BADDDDDDDDDDDDD YOU MADE THIS HAPPEN ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!
Thats how that sin goes inside of me.

Ive maybe got some weird mental illness now because words and sentenses keep going over and over and over in my head.
I know somebodies going to tell me its adhd or metd or ptsd or poopey poorpey.........
Im sorry.
I want all of this stuff to stop on here because Im a spoiled little brat and I want my forum back. RIGHT now!
I understand how both of you feel. I dont know of a cure for any of it. Its like a stupid popularity contest. Like the every girls dream of being on the squad or something whatever those things were called.

Its all just triggering everything inside of me. I HATE IT!

I want everybody to love everybody. I want LOVE and family! The FAMILY I never had!

[jimsmuse]

Originally Posted by hornblower

Im going back to sleeping too much again. Staying up later and later at night scared and restless coming here checking posts hoping everything is all love and light again.

Worrying about her thinking Im so awful again trying to help her shopping for her online saving the bags because Im scared to ask my husband for money we dont have.

Shes got a new job and shes hot its so awfully hot here now. Gad you wouldnt believe how awful everybody feels. You just want to find some bathwater to sit in or sleep under an air conditioner all of the time. Its no wonder shes sick. She is always getting sick.

I have a sin in my past that makes this whole thing more understandable about her. It never leaves me alone just sitting there waiting for the next thing to happen so it can pester me over and over again. YADADADADA!!!!!!!!! YOU ARE SO BADDDDDDDDDDDDD YOU MADE THIS HAPPEN ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!
Thats how that sin goes inside of me.

Ive maybe got some weird mental illness now because words and sentenses keep going over and over and over in my head.
I know somebodies going to tell me its adhd or metd or ptsd or poopey poorpey.........
Im sorry.
I want all of this stuff to stop on here because Im a spoiled little brat and I want my forum back. RIGHT now!
I understand how both of you feel. I dont know of a cure for any of it. Its like a stupid popularity contest. Like the every girls dream of being on the squad or something whatever those things were called.

Its all just triggering everything inside of me. I HATE IT!

I want everybody to love everybody. I want LOVE and family! The FAMILY I never had!

((((Hornblower)))))) we are your family, everything is alright!