Ninas

[butterfly]

I just sent you a PM it is important to me if you would please answer me with a PM.
I also have DID I just didn"t feel safe to tell any one. I was not for sure how I would be treated here.
Most of my insiders have blended in with me Shirely. I have worked many years doing so.
I hope you will not leave here. If you do I gave you my email address in the PM.
Please email me I care about all of you .
I feel right now is the time to share myself to you about my DID butterfly

[ninaspirit]

Hi Butterfly, thank you for pm-ing us and saying about DID for you. we pm-d back. how you asked. ninas.

[Janice]

Originally Posted by butterfly

I just sent you a PM it is important to me if you would please answer me with a PM.
I also have DID I just didn"t feel safe to tell any one. I was not for sure how I would be treated here.
Most of my insiders have blended in with me Shirely. I have worked many years doing so.
I hope you will not leave here. If you do I gave you my email address in the PM.
Please email me I care about all of you .
I feel right now is the time to share myself to you about my DID butterfly

[B]Thank you for trusting us enough to share Shirley. You've done well! B]

[butterfly]

Thank You Janice, I am so connected with Ninas because I understand how frightening it is for the little ones.
They sure went thru hell at that Dr"s office. I don"t want to see her leave because the Ninas have so much positive things sto say.
I thank God for DID because if it wasn"t for that I would not have surived. It is real DID and I am glad people here understand that it is.
I had to share lets just say it was time. For Ninas I shared because I do care for them and C.
It is hell being alone in the DID recovery. butterfly shirely

[ninaspirit]

Originally Posted by butterfly

Thank You Janice, I am so connected with Ninas because I understand how frightening it is for the little ones.
They sure went thru hell at that Dr"s office. I don"t want to see her leave because the Ninas have so much positive things sto say.
I thank God for DID because if it wasn"t for that I would not have surived. It is real DID and I am glad people here understand that it is.
I had to share lets just say it was time. For Ninas I shared because I do care for them and C.
It is hell being alone in the DID recovery. butterfly shirely

Butterfly, we're glad you think about us that way. we will try not to leave next time some body says they want out. ok.

DID is really a DIGift from God, not so much a disorder. How we learned - God created our brain/mind to be able to change in order to survive the abuse we did. so how the doctors got hold of it we don't know. some people decide to integrate and some don't. we decided not to.

we have a poem about DID and God, if it is ok for posting here. It shows us how God knows just how things are for us because it happned to Him too. He really did experience everything we do. The poem helped C.... acept us how we are.

The Beginning

by Will R.


I started life as I,

Early on I became we

Abuse was a cause

Survival was a goal.

Others do not understand

Violence has been a part

That we’re not proud of

Just didn’t know the way.

It took us a while to realize

That help could be found

To work at becoming I again

And maybe find happiness.

Remember God does understand

With very good reason

He’s a multiple too,

The Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

Look at the world He has made

We can enjoy it also

Don’t despair now

The end is in sight.

C and the ninas.

p.s. after our head was able to remember the doctors appointment last week, our thoughts are more settled and the memory parts are going into their places. we are very happy for that. some times our head still switches back to not knowing some times and we have to say, you remembered so now you know. and it helps not having to think we don't know.

so we had a good day today. and a nice christmas with our children. it was a peaceful day.

thank you everyone for your prayers and kind words. it made it more easy. ninas. C.....

[Voyager]

Ninas, you are awesome. You have such a good spirit about you. I always read your posts, even though I don't always reply. I am glad you found this forum.

[Kerrin]

[QUOTE]

Originally Posted by Voyager

Ninas, you are awesome. You have such a good spirit about you. I always read your posts, even though I don't always reply. I am glad you found this forum.

[/QUOTE

Me too, never know what to say , but always learn so much and 'sense' the warmth, and the pain.........Shirley too!
You are a huge benefit to the forum, and it makes me angry what abuse does to beautiful people.......I'm glad you both had a wonderful Christmas, and have families who love and care ; (((((((((Shirley)))))))
Love
Kerrin

[Satscout]

I left a therapist once because I was trying to describe how it feels to deal with the abuse and trauma I have been through... it is as if most "normal people" are a near sphere, with the same or similar faces showing to the people they know... but I am "faceted", and not prettily cut like a polished gemstone, either. So one "facet" may be able to handle work, or another my husband, or another my child, and so on. Not DID, and I never said I was. But he immediately berated me and told me I was not a multiple and don't pretend I was. I never went back after that.

We all have defense mechanisms. I refuse to judge someone by their defense mechanism. And I sympathize.

(((((((Ninas))))))) - I loved the poem. It is very eloquent.

[ninaspirit]

we are happy we stayed.

Statscout, we're glad you didn't go back to that doctor. we like the facet idea. stain glass pieces. each have a purpose for making a whole pictuer.

we still have to help some of our insiders learn how to do some things our I did before - some of her jobs that are overwhelming for her right now.

Everyone we're glad you like the poem - just want to say it is not our poem but written by Will R. who is not one of us but a outside person. ok

we do understand that some times people do need help with insiders to work with them instead of against them. just like single people. we have some that would like to hurt our body but so far are not being strong about it and our protectors, the Clear Ones will not allow them doing that.

Voyager we are glad we found this place too. we are still learning how to talk with people so we are glad when we do get responses but its ok if we don't. guess it must feel strange maybe for some? our I says it was strange before we came. she met someone who had insiders many years ago but didn't feel comfortable at all.

truth That is so great, I love that......particularly "to work at becoming I again..." simple, powerful and to-the-point - thank you for sharing it with us!

yes for some people becoming I again is important. for us working together inside for helping our I is important more than becoming I again. God didn't go back to One either. Maybe He can help others better the way He is now. she says she would miss us if we were gone. we tried going one again. but it was too crowded inside. our skin didn't fit. actually it didn't fit till we came out. and then it felt right. and for us it was was nice to be able to meet inside. but we see some tims it might cost us a friend if they arne't ok about insiders because not everyone understands. we have to remember that. so sometimes we go underground if certain people are around.

C....remembers and tells us that at one time we were all part of her as one. Now we are part of her as many. It is important for us remembering that so we don't go off doing our own thing and getting her in trouble becuase she still has to take the words is something goes wrong cause she's not saying about us then. but sometimes it is like not letting the right hand know what the left hand is doing. and she doesn't remember something happening or getting done. she says that is nice when she gets credits on her bills from paying twice.


Hi Janice - we are looking forward to chatting with you too.

us ninas thank you.

[Janice]

Hi Janice - we are looking forward to chatting with you too.

us ninas thank you.[/QUOTE]

Hi "C" Headed off to work soon. Hopefully we'll catch up later. have a great day! Miss you!