I'm back

[LadyLavender]

happy new year a bit late.
I was in Bermuda for november and december and had a very very stressful time. Now i'm trying to recover from that "episode" I went there to help a friend out.. her mother is very abusive and actually as strange as this may sound i do believe her mom is demonically possessed. Several things happened during the two months i was there that just tested me to the extreme. God was faithful though. Because i surely wanted to swim away from the island.
Her mother's spirit and my spirit definitely clashed although i gave her absolutely no reason to treat me the way she did.. she manifested in several ways.. It was very draining. Then my friend who i went to visit, is a sex addict and also has a problem with alcohol and other "vices" its so sad. I must say i was very shocked by the things she told me. It was a huge burden.
Lots of family secrets that just depressed me. But she ended up feeling better having gotten it off her chest. But now i wonder what am i to do??
Having grown up in such a sheltered environment, it was just pretty repulsive hearing the things she told me. Now i'm back home and i feel very depressed and burdened. :(
And i start to wonder how could God ever use me if i cringe at every horrible thing that i see or that people tell me..
sorry this post is completely disjointed and doesn't make any sense, but i'm completely spiritually, emotionally and physically exhausted after my time over there. And it Sucks to not have a spiritual family or friends in this area to whom i can go to.. none of it satisfies.
LadyLavender :confused:

[dwilliams]

Sounds to me like you were a real blessing to your friend.
Sometimes the best a person can do is all that is needed. When I was a teenager, I was extremely rebellious. I did things that make most crimes look like a birthday party in comparison...
But you know what? I eventually got my head screwed on straight and the most meaningful people in my life were those who cared about me enough to just be there and lend a listening ear or show an act of kindness toward me, rather than the harsh admonitions I received at my folks old church.

It's people like you who often times make the difference in a person's life.

God bless you.

[LadyLavender]

Thanks Dwilliams...I guess i have tunnel vision. Its hard to know when you've helped or not, or when you've just been body-slammed and you chalk it up to another life experience...know what I mean? I think she was blessed... I just gotta leave it in the Lord's hands.. right?
Be blessed,
LadyLav

[Jerry]

Dear Lady,,,
You said you wonder how God can use you if you cringe ect.,,,,,,,,,,I am not discounting your personal reasons for going,your agenda was to help a friend and nothing more.Having said that,,,,,,perhaps God had an agenda that you were unaware of ;)
Love Jerry,,,,,,,,,,,,,WELCOME BACK :D

[Janice]

Welcome back Lady. What I wouldn't have given to be in Bermuda these past few weeks :D but, I am so sorry you had such a stressful time.

It's ok to "cringe" at things, God made us human. It sounds like God had you exactly where He wanted you and He will no doubt continue to lead you in the way He wants you to go.

Now get some rest and hang in there!