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ercr
05-18-2010, 07:43 PM
First off, I have been looking for a forum like this just to express all the thoughts, feelings etc that I have experienced with my former church over the last 6 months.

I first noticed the abusive behaviour of our church leaders at a members meeting. Let me go a few steps back though. Our pastor has had multiple strokes over the prior year prior to this meeting and basically was out of action. He has short term memory loss, and cannot remember anything that happened in the last 5 min. He had reached the point where he had to be taken care of like a baby. Told when to eat, when to sleep etc.etc. However he was considered still the pastor in charge. In addition, his assistant pastor had resigned about a month prior to this meeting with no explanation to the congregation why.

Ok, so the meeting came and we thought that we were going to get an explanation as to why the assistance pastor left, and also thought that the meeting would be a forum for questions. Well, the meeting went on with presentations of elaborate plans, vision, etc etc, no questions were entertained. They were about to close the meeting until someone brave enough stood and said, well, they understood that the meeting was to be open for questions. The leaders then reluctantly asked what questions they were. First someone respectfully asked what happened to the assistant pastor. They said, well, we should go and ask him. They don't feel it is right for them to say. Then my wife asked if pastor (who was sitting there) was ok to really lead the congregation. There was no answer to that. All the while the pastors wife was looking around at those asking questions, with a scowl on her face. Someone got up and said we in the congregation should just trust the leaders and not ask questions. People were treated like kids, and no real answers were dealt with, and then at the end of the meeting we were all told that we needed to sign covenant members cards to become members (we did not sign).

Fast forward: I was a ministry leader, and my wife as well. I got a unsigned letter that just said it was from the 'office of the senior pastor), saying that I was to hand in my keys for the building, do not meet with my ministry staff, etc until the issue with my wife is resolved. What issue: well my wife recieved a letter as well saying that her question was disrepectfull, unbecoming as a leader, etc etc, and they require my wife to come and apologize to the senior pastor and his wife. When our pastor was healthy he never ever communicated to us via letter. Anyway, I called the pastor's house to ask if this unsigned letter was from him. His wife picked up the phone and reluctantly put the pastor on. I engaged in small talk, then brought up the letter and asked if it was from him. He really did not answer.... but his wife suddenly spoke (I did not realize she was listening) and said yes it was and that we need to respect them, and that my wife needs to come and apologize. I said ok, since you guys are offended, my wife will come, but I must come as well to witness and support my wife. She argued about me coming, but reluctantly agreed. So we were all set to set a date to go talk to them. But early the next morning, the pastors wife called me and said that she and her husband discussed it and my wife will have to come alone. I said can we discuss this. She said that no that is the decision and she needs to go, and then hung up on me. I was shocked.

I told my wife she cannot go to meet them alone without me. She accepted and agreed, but it was difficult cause her friends were saying, she should go alone cause the pastor said to go alone. We spoke to other pastors we trusted and they all told us it is wrong for them to demand to speak to my wife and not allow me to go too. My wife even called the pastors wife ( who seemed to now be making all decisions) about the issue and the pastor's wife said that my wife should choose who she will obey, me or them.

Anyway, because we agreed this is wrong, and that any meeting with my wife must include me, they wrote us a couple more letters, and then basically forced me to resign, and they were telling people I was still in charge of the ministry, even though they took my keys, etc, etc.

Since then, many people have been hurt and come to us telling us of the control, the manipulation, and the demands being placed on them. They started preaching about obeying leaders. They did this for about a month. They also a giving deadlines for people to sign a covenant members card or they cannot be a member of the church. They also are telling people that unless they attend all small group meetings, people cannot be members. They don't allow any ministry leader any autonomy. They make all the decisions for all ministries, but the ministry leaders has to carry it out.

They react arbitrarily to situations... It is as if they are making up rules as they go along. Nothing is in writing. All the while they are saying that the pastor is the one making the decisions, when in fact he can't remember what happened 10 minutes ago. My wife and I and kids have left that church. Many others have left as well, but many of our friends have stayed. We are hearing now though that many of those friends have serious concerns of the leadership. One of the people who asked questions at the meeting did go and apologize, but they said that he did not have the right attitude when he apologized so he would have to sit down from ministry until they decided he has really repented. They will determine when he has adequately been restored in his heart. (can you imagine).

In any case, the Evangelical Counsel of churches have heard about this, and after carefull consideration approached the leadership to ask them to transfer leadership to someone else in thier church who can still carry on thier vision because the pastor (and his wife) are unfit to lead the church and are hurting members of the body of Christ. The pastor and his wife refused to give up leadership.

My wife and I are still struggling about this whole ordeal especially as it relates to our old friends who are still there, and those who have left and are hurt. In addition or youngest child asks from time to time when we will go back to that church.

Sorry for the long post, but just had to express my self. There is more, but I think you get the picture.

Ellen
05-18-2010, 08:04 PM
Wow, another amazing story!

Welcome - you came to the right place to share your story, find support, and hopefully, healing from the wounds.

Feel free to continue posting your experience and please know that you are not alone.

Ellen

Lori
05-19-2010, 07:32 AM
Wow, this just boggles the mind! You are definitely in the right place! I am so grateful to have found a group of people that understand what I've been through like no one else can. It is safe, the people are so friendly and faithful to answer questions when asked.

WELCOME!

Jerry
05-19-2010, 09:11 AM
Dear Eror,,,
Welcome :D Your story is not unusual,,,,,
Strike the Shepherd ,,,,,and the flock will be scattered ;)
There comes a time when it is appropriate for a leader to pass the torch on to someone new.Blessed and wise is the man who understands these things and supports the new leadership with the same vigor with which he lead ;)

Love Jerry

ercr
05-19-2010, 07:14 PM
Thanks guys. I appreciate the comments. I sometimes wonder if it is I alone who sees that something is really wrong going on there. A lot of my friends who have left that church I don't think have processed what was going on as deeply as I have. They just know something is wrong, but I really have sought the Lord, done a lot of research on spiritual abuse and kept re-evaluating the situation to see if I am missing the boat.

I am convinced over and over again that these leaders have lost it. In fact, a friend of mine who moved prior to all of this to another city, met with one of the leaders and told me afterwards that he feels they have lost touch which reality and needs professional intervention.

My thing now is how will this be dealt with? The church is independent, and the pastor and his wife are not accountable to anyone. They are a part of the Evangelical Association, but basically told the association to go take a hike. The Evangelical association is praying and fasting to know what to do. I will pray for them, because I don't think the Lord will allow His people to suffer like this for too much longer. I am not attending that church anymore, but my heart breaks for those who are still there.

Anna Marta
05-20-2010, 02:28 AM
Dear ERCR,

My heart goes out to you! We have walked a few miles in your moccasins and understand the heartbreak, frustration, anger and sense of helplessness while desiring to DO something. :confused:

Want to encourage you to keep talking with each other and to share your story (and your feelings) with others, this helps a great deal. As time passes you may be pleasantly surprised at how many others have been floundering and how badly they need your support and ability to surface the "obvious." You and your wife seem to be "the real deal" when it comes to leaders. Bringing things into the light is a painful, but badly needed, process. The church is obviously now functioning under the cover of illegitimate, unauthentic leaders. The pastor's wife it appears, has finally gotten the chance to exercise her authority and get back at any and all who either have in the past, or are currently offending her (or threatening her love of power :mad:)

A word of caution - "People do not know they are deceived until they are no longer deceived" - up to that time of enlightenment, they will not recognize what is so plainly clear to you.

Also, do not be surprised at what and/or how much God allows His people to go through. It is my experience that He provides plenty of information and opportunities for escape. We have complete free will to do as we please, those who remain do so by their own choice. Some people never do see the writing on the wall, on the paper, on the faces of others, in the warnings they are given or in their own uncomfortable sense of something not being quite right.

The Body of Christ is not supposed to be a prison that chains one to a doctrine or a place of worship. The Body of Christ is a living family that loves and gives freely encouraging each to grasp the "Truth that sets us Free!" Our personal ministry is NOT to those to know the Lord.

Christ was about as clear as He could be when He told us to "Go Out into all the world." When a church sees "the world" and people as "the enemy" and choose to remain behind the doors, so to speak, serving themselves and their building, THEY GOT IT WRONG! Jesus is our example, is He not? He ate and drank with sinners. He partied with the best of them and was accused of being a glutton and a drunkard, by "THE church leaders." I have had more opportunities to serve God in the form of of His children in many places: the beauty parlor, a sewing class, in a restaurant, at a party or in the neighborhood (and recently in the B & B we stayed in during our vacation.)

When we listen deeply and show that we hear and care people directly experience Christ in us. They open up and feel warmth without being able to explain exactly what the source is. It is Christ in US.

This spiritual abuse situation that has permitted you the opportunity to get out of the prison of that church, is much like what happened in Jerusalem at the time of the persecutions... God does need to force His faithful servants OUT into the world.

So far you have been able to call "A spade a spade" your next step is to do as Lot did and not stay anywhere on the plain, but take your family "out" and watch for what God has already planned and set in motion for you. If you allow your feelings to anchor you to the past, you will never experience the joy and freedom of today, let alone the wonderful things to come in the future God has for you!

Allow your heart a time to heal, through allowing others to talk with you and share their experience while you continue to show the way forward. There is NOTHING you can do or are most likely expected to do in that old "religious organization" Now you are free to see it is NOT the Church or Body of Christ, but a legalistic religious organization that enslaves people (joyfully, so they think :eek:)

Those who hang onto the anger and frustration tend to remain angry and frustrated... repeating a cycle again and again through reliving the experience.

The anger will fade, the pain will lessen - it is a grieving time in your life. Bury the dead church and leave the cemetery behind go out the gates to LIFE!

ral
05-20-2010, 08:27 AM
I have read with much interest the posts on this forum. My situation is different. My son is involved with the group that claims the end is next May. I have read books on spiritual abuse and addiction and I know that is where he is at. My fears are for his wife and family. Will it ever be possible for him to heal without her being willing to walk away from the church that she still attends? Do they have to start over before even trying to fit into a church or can healing take place in a church setting? Her father is a reformed minister and the rules matter. My husband and I haven't attended church for about 5 years. It is a very freeing experience not to live under the rules of religion. I understand christianity more today than ever. I would appreciate any advice that anyone can give.

Anna Marta
05-21-2010, 01:07 AM
My husband and I haven't attended church for about 5 years. It is a very freeing experience not to live under the rules of religion. I understand christianity more today than ever. I would appreciate any advice that anyone can give.

Hi Ral, I too have the sense of freedom and a better appreciation for the Christian life without the rules and authority of religion on my back.

I understand your frustration about your son's situation. Sadly as parents of grown children, we can only pray and stand ready to support and offer help when we are needed.

The way we have chosen to handle such things is to allow our children to make their own mistakes, (just as we did :rolleyes:) and wait to be invited into their situation. Just as God has given us free will, we believe we are to give our adult children free will and not place our expectations or restrictions on them. This has allowed our children to come to us without fear of reprisals or comments when they need/want our wisdom or help. We have earned their respect in this way - even though it has been so very hard to watch some of their decisions and allow them to make mistakes we would have hoped to spare them from.

May you know the strength of God in your hearts as you wait and watch and make yourselves available for them.

broken_hearted_sheep
05-21-2010, 10:50 AM
Welcome to the forum...yep, just as the title indicates, sounds like a text book case of abuse. We're glad you're here. :)