Malinda
01-25-2010, 11:56 AM
You know the commercials where a persons face morphs into another persons face and it keeps changing like that?
Well last night I had a dream like that except it was images and people from my life....It was kinda cool. God was showing me images from my past all the way into my future and then back to the present. Every image morphed into the next, flashing through years, both good and bad. I saw me moving through the hurt, pushing forward and back into ministry. Just a glimpse of what God had in store for me. He was going to use what I had gone through to further me, to help others heal. He was letting me know I'm not going to be in this place forever. Then He brought me back to today and where I'm at and let me know that I was where I needed to be.
It's so scary going to a new church and I had been doubting going to this church because my ex pastors abhorred it so.
One of the girls from my new church posted a bunch of pics from yesterdays service on her facebook and immediately my heart started pounding when I saw them. I was scared and I didn't want them to know where I was; at least not for certain anyways.
I guess I just needed God to let me know, that where I am, in my journey of forgiveness and healing, was ok and that I was exactly where I was supposed to be. That, and I'm not always going to be in this place. I will get past this and I will move on and His gifts and callings are Irrevocable.
The only thing about the dream.....is I wish I could remember the parts about my future!!! But that part is just a haze and all I know is that I'll be ok and involved in ministry again better than it was before.
Well last night I had a dream like that except it was images and people from my life....It was kinda cool. God was showing me images from my past all the way into my future and then back to the present. Every image morphed into the next, flashing through years, both good and bad. I saw me moving through the hurt, pushing forward and back into ministry. Just a glimpse of what God had in store for me. He was going to use what I had gone through to further me, to help others heal. He was letting me know I'm not going to be in this place forever. Then He brought me back to today and where I'm at and let me know that I was where I needed to be.
It's so scary going to a new church and I had been doubting going to this church because my ex pastors abhorred it so.
One of the girls from my new church posted a bunch of pics from yesterdays service on her facebook and immediately my heart started pounding when I saw them. I was scared and I didn't want them to know where I was; at least not for certain anyways.
I guess I just needed God to let me know, that where I am, in my journey of forgiveness and healing, was ok and that I was exactly where I was supposed to be. That, and I'm not always going to be in this place. I will get past this and I will move on and His gifts and callings are Irrevocable.
The only thing about the dream.....is I wish I could remember the parts about my future!!! But that part is just a haze and all I know is that I'll be ok and involved in ministry again better than it was before.