standing still
01-26-2005, 12:45 PM
Built new sports ministries in S. FLA church years ago as a lay leader. Organized the leaders, raised the money, and lead the entire thing into fruition with over 300 people involved in each ministry.
Had the ministries taken away through church politics by a staff member who wanted the ministries for himself. Watched as the ministries went downhill. It was despicable. When I left that church I felt as if I could have taken a month long shower and still felt dirty. However, I had a burning desire for ministry tapped.
That church could have given me a mat to sleep on outside the door, gruel for food, and paid me nothing as long as I could have done ministry. I would have been the happiest man in the world.
My family continued to go back to these churches against my wishes, and the fact that they had turned me into a spiritual whore. Only when I read Van Vonderan's book, did I begin to get healing. However, those in the church we had gone back to discredited the book, and told me I was the problem. My wife discredited the book as well.
Years later as we have bounced around as a family my thirst for ministry has never faded. Unfortunately, my marriage is now falling apart. and our family is being destroyed. I had taken my family away from this denomination only to see my wife after we separated take my children back there. It's sickening.
In spite of this I continued to work on my goals in ministry, and before I was to launch my web site I had revisited a web site of one of these churches we had attended in the Atlanta area only to see that some of the materials I had put together had been changed around a utilized in this church for their own ministry.
I wondered why I had approached that site why I felt so dirty gain, except this time it was worse. It wasn't until after I spoke incognito with one of the staff members that was implementing the program did I hear him explain almost exactly what I had in my own materials.
You see, I had met with the senior pastor in this church. I thought I could trust him. I explained to him the spiritual abuse I had encountered while building the sports ministries in S. Fl. He seemed to genuinely care. I gave him the materials that I had put together regarding other forms of ministry and asked him to look them over, and then call me if he thought there was any way I could help. He never did. Now, five years later after leaving his church I see he has reconfigured them to fit his agenda, reducing what I had given to him to something it isn't. It's so sad.
What was worse was the the filthy feeling I had all over again. My wife sees nothing wrong with what they did, and even stands behind it only to say, "I'm sorry. That's just too bad."
However, I am still not going to let that keep God from utiizing me in ministry. I am going through with my plans to launch my site. I was concerned how I could be utilized by God in ministry if I had to go through a divorce. However, I recently listened to Mike Haney from Focus on the Family share how God delivered him from homosexuality. He is now married with two children and has a flourishing ministry for the kingdom. If God can do that with Mike, he can certainly take someone who goes through a divorce and bring the best out in them.
I am getting counsel here in Charlotte through a baptist church that has experience with spiritual abuse. The "abusing church" was wanting to help, however, I explained to them they help with one hand and abuse with the other. I had to refuse their help even though I'm only a few days away from being on the street. However, I know that since I am breaking this pattern, and moving away from the abusers that God will provide.
Not accepting their help was hard, but I tell ya I have found great freedom in doing so.
This has been an twenty year saga. However, I'm telling you there is a ministry that is going to exlpode from this that will blow your mind, and SET THE CAPTIVES FREE!!! If you are interested in getting info on Kingdom Life Markletplace Ministries you can E-mail me at mpmadden@peoplepc.com. My site will be back up in few days. I'll post again with the web site address.
The subtext to Kingdom Life Marketplace Ministries is, "Empowerment for Christ Centered Living".
Confront the abusers. It can get dirty, but it's the only way to freedom.
May God be with you!
Had the ministries taken away through church politics by a staff member who wanted the ministries for himself. Watched as the ministries went downhill. It was despicable. When I left that church I felt as if I could have taken a month long shower and still felt dirty. However, I had a burning desire for ministry tapped.
That church could have given me a mat to sleep on outside the door, gruel for food, and paid me nothing as long as I could have done ministry. I would have been the happiest man in the world.
My family continued to go back to these churches against my wishes, and the fact that they had turned me into a spiritual whore. Only when I read Van Vonderan's book, did I begin to get healing. However, those in the church we had gone back to discredited the book, and told me I was the problem. My wife discredited the book as well.
Years later as we have bounced around as a family my thirst for ministry has never faded. Unfortunately, my marriage is now falling apart. and our family is being destroyed. I had taken my family away from this denomination only to see my wife after we separated take my children back there. It's sickening.
In spite of this I continued to work on my goals in ministry, and before I was to launch my web site I had revisited a web site of one of these churches we had attended in the Atlanta area only to see that some of the materials I had put together had been changed around a utilized in this church for their own ministry.
I wondered why I had approached that site why I felt so dirty gain, except this time it was worse. It wasn't until after I spoke incognito with one of the staff members that was implementing the program did I hear him explain almost exactly what I had in my own materials.
You see, I had met with the senior pastor in this church. I thought I could trust him. I explained to him the spiritual abuse I had encountered while building the sports ministries in S. Fl. He seemed to genuinely care. I gave him the materials that I had put together regarding other forms of ministry and asked him to look them over, and then call me if he thought there was any way I could help. He never did. Now, five years later after leaving his church I see he has reconfigured them to fit his agenda, reducing what I had given to him to something it isn't. It's so sad.
What was worse was the the filthy feeling I had all over again. My wife sees nothing wrong with what they did, and even stands behind it only to say, "I'm sorry. That's just too bad."
However, I am still not going to let that keep God from utiizing me in ministry. I am going through with my plans to launch my site. I was concerned how I could be utilized by God in ministry if I had to go through a divorce. However, I recently listened to Mike Haney from Focus on the Family share how God delivered him from homosexuality. He is now married with two children and has a flourishing ministry for the kingdom. If God can do that with Mike, he can certainly take someone who goes through a divorce and bring the best out in them.
I am getting counsel here in Charlotte through a baptist church that has experience with spiritual abuse. The "abusing church" was wanting to help, however, I explained to them they help with one hand and abuse with the other. I had to refuse their help even though I'm only a few days away from being on the street. However, I know that since I am breaking this pattern, and moving away from the abusers that God will provide.
Not accepting their help was hard, but I tell ya I have found great freedom in doing so.
This has been an twenty year saga. However, I'm telling you there is a ministry that is going to exlpode from this that will blow your mind, and SET THE CAPTIVES FREE!!! If you are interested in getting info on Kingdom Life Markletplace Ministries you can E-mail me at mpmadden@peoplepc.com. My site will be back up in few days. I'll post again with the web site address.
The subtext to Kingdom Life Marketplace Ministries is, "Empowerment for Christ Centered Living".
Confront the abusers. It can get dirty, but it's the only way to freedom.
May God be with you!