Where am I on the recovery road?

[Anna Marta]

I ask myself this question every time something happens to trigger me after I think I am returning to a normal state.

I'd say I am more than half way down the road. :) I hope........................

AM

[Reg]

Hi AM,

Maybe you might want to review this...

Stages of Grief
http://www.christianrecovery.com/vb/showthread.php?t=5678&highlight=stages+grief&page=4

[SueJean]

I ask myself this question every time something happens to trigger me after I think I am returning to a normal state.

I'd say I am more than half way down the road. :) I hope........................

AM
Hi AM,

Sigh. I feel as if I'm stuck on the road to recovery. I said my good-byes to a lady where my husband and I have been attending for the last four years. I am unwilling or unable to remain silent to what I call abuse from an elite group within the congregation. I've mentioned it in a couple of recent posts. sigh. My hubby told me that he knew it would come to this. Neither one of us had made any friends to amount to anything..no commitments or anything even remotely close. I kinda feel relieved in just knowing that I don't have to return there. Now what? My hubby said that he's done; that was it for him. I, on my part, still have hope that there is a group out there where we would be accepted. I'm not talking about being smothered or anything like that. Ohhhhh noooooo! I think that we'll take a break over the summer..and fall..maybe. Oh, I don't know. This is very upsetting. I had hoped.... But, then, I had hoped that where we were attending --the SA group -- would remain. I'll look into attending some more day time 12 step meetings. There are plenty in the Pittsburgh/Allegheny Co area. In that regard, we are most fortunate. Thanks for letting me share.

[Jerry]

I ask myself this question every time something happens to trigger me after I think I am returning to a normal state.

I'd say I am more than half way down the road. :) I hope........................

AM

If I have to stop and think in order to behave differently,,,,,,then "Change" has not yet taken place ;)

[jchpiper]

It's been awhile (obviously) since I posted. I hope it's o.k. if I pop in and say hi...and perhaps respond to a few posties. :-)

The title of this thread brought me a smile AM. I'm not sure why...other than I feel I'll probably always be on that road, reconnecting parts of myself that have been 'dismembered?'; I don't know if I'll ever 'arrive.'

Not a day goes by that I don't think about my past cult life. I'm feeling more comfortable with that, as odd as it sounds.

Your question brought to mind a snippet from part of something I wrote in the past months (See in quotes below). Hopefully, by reaching out to others (via the web and in 3-D life), we are reclaiming part of the loss.

"As this blog is developing (with my own evolvement) it has taken the path of writing about and researching the part of my life some people have suggested/advised that I 'move on' from or 'replace'. That is my 28-year involvement with The Way International and even more years as a 'true believer.'

I'm coming to see that I can't move on from or replace that. It is as intricate to my life as my breath; dare I say, as childbirth. The Way and my experiences course through my veins. If I bleed out, I die. If I deny it, I suffocate. "

toss & ripple (http://tossandripple.blogspot.com/2009/03/thinking.html) (shameless plug...haha ;) )

[SueJean]

Where am I on the recovery road? Well, change again... the pastor where we've been attending and I have been talking and I'm giving the churchgroup one more time. He's encouraging me to compile a list of how the Lord is using me. I'll tell you, I'm having a very difficult time! Oh my! Difficult, indeed. I came to his office with just a few items on the list. As we talked, he'd say, "Write that on your list." I'd say, "Write what?" "What you just told me." Difficult. My dear mom-in-law has had "two" health incidents in one week and so I'm helping to take care of her. She's turning into Miss Daisy. I mention this because we need help to help her. We're not ready for strangers to enter her home. Soooo, I'm looking to the church group we're attending. Boy, this is difficult!

[beginagainrose]

SJ... The Word says, "Who shall despise the day of small things" I have great admiration for anyone doing eldercare. I was just saying the other day about my sister and I caring for our mentally ill mother for 10 years before she died. Sadly, my SA would make thinly veiled cracks about mental illness from the pulpit when she would come to church. FWIW, I think any eldercare should be a biggie on your list!:) ...especially if she is turning into Miss Daisy!:D