the root of my issue

[outcast]

After 3 years and 2 churches, I had an epiphany the other day. I realized that the root of my trust issues with the church were really an issue with God himself. After being deceived for over a decade and dealing with the repercussions of false doctrine, I see that a big fear that I have/had is that I will someday feel or think that God is not real.

I know in my heart however, that that is not true. But, I think there is cleansing in admitting that for me that is a root issue. On some level I do fear that since someone deceived me in believing that all these crazy things are true, I am also concerned that there is falsehood in the very root of my faith.

For me, just admitting this is the case allowed me to move on.

[Jerry]

I know in my heart however, that that is not true. But, I think there is cleansing in admitting that for me that is a root issue. On some level I do fear that since someone deceived me in believing that all these crazy things are true, I am also concerned that there is falsehood in the very root of my faith.

For me, just admitting this is the case allowed me to move on.

Dear Outcast,,,,
Now you and God together can build your faith.....Founded in truth not foolishness :D

Love Jerry

[Anna Marta]

OMG - this is exactly what my good friend in Norway just went through!

It was an amazingly freeing time when she was able to admit it to someone. We spent a LOT OF TIME bouncing this thing back and forth as she worked her way through this fear. She is now rebuilding her faith from the bottom up.

Best wishes and good thoughts (and our prayers) for your journey.

Love
AM

[Maggy]

After 3 years and 2 churches, I had an epiphany the other day. I realized that the root of my trust issues with the church were really an issue with God himself.

I used to think that way too. Then one day I woke up and realized that I didn't have an issue with God at all. It was the churches who were representing God that had the problem. Don't blame yourself. Please don't say that you are the root of the problem. It's the messed-up religious system that is the root of the problem hon.

[outcast]

Thanks for the replies. I am still processing, though. I don't really blame myself, but sometimes I am at a real loss to know how to express myself to God. All I know to do is to be real and blunt.

I felt it was a real cathartic breakthrough to admit that this was a very real fear. I think that admitting it is half the battle.

[Kitty]

I do not know if this makes any sense but sometimes the only thing I can say to God is HELP!

[Jerry]

Thanks for the replies. I am still processing, though. I don't really blame myself, but sometimes I am at a real loss to know how to express myself to God. All I know to do is to be real and blunt.

I felt it was a real cathartic breakthrough to admit that this was a very real fear. I think that admitting it is half the battle.

Dear Outcast,,,
Hey Blunt is ok with God,,,,,,He is a big boy ,,,,,,,, He can take it ;)
Love Jerry

[SueJean]

Thank you for your willingness to share your thoughts :) I have had similar thoughts. I am learning -- emphasis on learning -- to have faith, to trust, to have confidence in GOD, in His written word, as I surrender, as I walk, crawl, rest in Him. I cannot rely on my feelings what so ever :eek: I share with my sponsor -- I attend support meetings related to my family of origin -- who happens to be a born-again Christian. I'm learning to trust her...oh, how difficult that has been. I'm slowly reaching out to others in the meetings. At the church we've been attending for 3 yrs now since we got out of the spiritually abusive group, I've connected with one lady. We talk occasionally. I'm feeling teary-eyed :( sigh. One day at a time. I'm learning to be gentle with myself :) :D