abbey
08-09-2007, 05:02 PM
I think its time to share what happened to me:
in 2000, i was saved and filled with the holy spirit for 3 months! also, i was healed from 25 years of addiction to alcohol, real supernatural stuff. My marriage was a sham, we ived in seperate bedroooms, and raised our son. When i married my husaband i had my fingers crossed, it was a business partnership as opposed to a "i love you forever" kinda thing.
i didnt understand the bible, as i was told most of it was symbolic. after reading corinth 7, i decided to disobey it. certainly GOd understood that my marriage wasnt real.He didnt.
I left my husband due to nervous breakdown. And i left my son there too. But this was after i asked family to take us in. my family wouldnt take my son, my heart was shattered!
I worked 77 hours a week to get a home for me and my son. when i purchased a mobile home, my husband said i cant have my child back. I was crushed. soon after, i ended up in pysch ward after pysch ward after pysch ward. i was a broken down woman.
I abandoned god? wasnt he supposed to protect me? I never read the bible or attended church, the only christian i knew lived in san diego. he ran a deliverance ministry. i thought it was just a casting out of demons thing. i was mislead. he invited me out there to get well. i assumed they were compassionate, loving people who understood m pain. i was wrong.
at my wits end, i bought a plane ticket to sd. looking for godly help. first thing the leader asked me was, what happened. i told him i left a bad marriage. he said to repent.
when i repented, i was flooded with the presense of god. like a constant waterfall, gushing down on my being. i rejoiced, but was confused that god didnt understand a bad marriage. i repented of every sin i commited. 'hey, these people knew what they were doing. another time, the leader spoke in tounges over me and layed hands on my head, as he did this, a heat came from his hands and also the power of the holy spirit entered threw his hands...i was flipping out! But then things went crazy.
the first time i noticed i was in a cult was when the leader said that a former member LEFT GOD when she LEFT the group. inwardly, that was a red flag, but i didnt express it out to the group. i felt that they were brainwashing me not to leave. i soon noticed other strange and unpleasant things. they said there group was a chosen few, highly blessed in gods eyes. they also were so called prophets. The said i was commanded by god to bring 1000's to jesus thru a music ministry. i laughed ! Im 40 years old. i cant sing anymore. they also said that they could see my father in the spiritual realm. he was screwed. he wasnt in heaven or hell, but outside the body in some limbo???? they said he never surrendered to christ and was in agony. They said i had the same heart and if i didnt lay my life down in their group, id suffer the same fate.
since i fell away from god at the beginng of my salvation, they said they were suprised that god didnt kill my son, like he killed davids. I was floored! they also said my son was idolatry. That i was forced to give him up, like abraham was to sacrafice issac. they said i was like i was wrestling with god. to stay in their group and "follow the lord' or go back home and suffer gods wrath. i went home.
they also said i had mpd. that i was suffering from multiple personality disorder and that all people are 'broken' they said all the parts needed to be united in christ.they claimed i was mpd, and i couldnt leave their holier than thou group. i needed to be united in christ. what a$$holes.
so they filled me with fear. dire consequenses if i left. they claimed all menatl illness is demons. nope---all bad things are demons. from add to a toothache! I wasnt convinced.
well this is long enough. just a little of my terrible adventures in a cult. they were NUTZ!
in 2000, i was saved and filled with the holy spirit for 3 months! also, i was healed from 25 years of addiction to alcohol, real supernatural stuff. My marriage was a sham, we ived in seperate bedroooms, and raised our son. When i married my husaband i had my fingers crossed, it was a business partnership as opposed to a "i love you forever" kinda thing.
i didnt understand the bible, as i was told most of it was symbolic. after reading corinth 7, i decided to disobey it. certainly GOd understood that my marriage wasnt real.He didnt.
I left my husband due to nervous breakdown. And i left my son there too. But this was after i asked family to take us in. my family wouldnt take my son, my heart was shattered!
I worked 77 hours a week to get a home for me and my son. when i purchased a mobile home, my husband said i cant have my child back. I was crushed. soon after, i ended up in pysch ward after pysch ward after pysch ward. i was a broken down woman.
I abandoned god? wasnt he supposed to protect me? I never read the bible or attended church, the only christian i knew lived in san diego. he ran a deliverance ministry. i thought it was just a casting out of demons thing. i was mislead. he invited me out there to get well. i assumed they were compassionate, loving people who understood m pain. i was wrong.
at my wits end, i bought a plane ticket to sd. looking for godly help. first thing the leader asked me was, what happened. i told him i left a bad marriage. he said to repent.
when i repented, i was flooded with the presense of god. like a constant waterfall, gushing down on my being. i rejoiced, but was confused that god didnt understand a bad marriage. i repented of every sin i commited. 'hey, these people knew what they were doing. another time, the leader spoke in tounges over me and layed hands on my head, as he did this, a heat came from his hands and also the power of the holy spirit entered threw his hands...i was flipping out! But then things went crazy.
the first time i noticed i was in a cult was when the leader said that a former member LEFT GOD when she LEFT the group. inwardly, that was a red flag, but i didnt express it out to the group. i felt that they were brainwashing me not to leave. i soon noticed other strange and unpleasant things. they said there group was a chosen few, highly blessed in gods eyes. they also were so called prophets. The said i was commanded by god to bring 1000's to jesus thru a music ministry. i laughed ! Im 40 years old. i cant sing anymore. they also said that they could see my father in the spiritual realm. he was screwed. he wasnt in heaven or hell, but outside the body in some limbo???? they said he never surrendered to christ and was in agony. They said i had the same heart and if i didnt lay my life down in their group, id suffer the same fate.
since i fell away from god at the beginng of my salvation, they said they were suprised that god didnt kill my son, like he killed davids. I was floored! they also said my son was idolatry. That i was forced to give him up, like abraham was to sacrafice issac. they said i was like i was wrestling with god. to stay in their group and "follow the lord' or go back home and suffer gods wrath. i went home.
they also said i had mpd. that i was suffering from multiple personality disorder and that all people are 'broken' they said all the parts needed to be united in christ.they claimed i was mpd, and i couldnt leave their holier than thou group. i needed to be united in christ. what a$$holes.
so they filled me with fear. dire consequenses if i left. they claimed all menatl illness is demons. nope---all bad things are demons. from add to a toothache! I wasnt convinced.
well this is long enough. just a little of my terrible adventures in a cult. they were NUTZ!