My biopsy was today

[abbey]

*BIG sigh*

When the drs considered me cancer-free, i was rejoicing. Yet, they found another lump. If the biopsy comes up positive I will lose almost ALL of my tongue and require radiation. He siad if I do need this lump removed, I will not be able to speak anymore!:eek:

Obviously, this frightens the heck out of me! I cant imagine being silent. He didnt comment at all on if its is cancerous looking or not. We just discussed the out come if it is.

Im really scared guyz! Between the divorce, the fire at my house and my cancer, its been a long, exhausting journey. Yet, I may die from this. Its possible. What percentage, i dont know, but it can end in death. I am asking for super duper prayers from anyone willing. I cant understand why God is allowing all this bad news. But we will have trails and tribs, like Jesus said.

thx for being THERE! I appreciate all the prayers and encouragement! You guyz are awesome.

Have a nice evening! Abbey

[jimsmuse]

Hi sweet girl, I am so sorry for the news, I know this has been a very tiring journey. I know you were hoping it was over and we were hoping with you. I will pray with you and hold you up. I will pray that God will cover you with his garment and hold you. I am sorry that I cannot be there for you in person.
I will pray that He also gives you understanding, peace, and wisdom for any treatment and decisions that may be forthcoming. You are not alone...

[abbey]

Hi sweet girl, I am so sorry for the news, I know this has been a very tiring journey. I know you were hoping it was over and we were hoping with you. I will pray with you and hold you up. I will pray that God will cover you with his garment and hold you. I am sorry that I cannot be there for you in person.
I will pray that He also gives you understanding, peace, and wisdom for any treatment and decisions that may be forthcoming. You are not alone...


Thank you jimsmuse for your kindness! Prayer is all we can do. I cannot really wrap my head around it all. Its a 50/50 sorta thing. To lose the ability to speak and have next to nothing for a tongue, plus rad in the mouth----WOW! Its just too much to handle. Especially when they found everything was caught early and I did well. Heck, all my lympnodes were cancer free. I really thought i had it beat!

Its all in Gods hands now!

Thx friend!

[mary]

Oh, dear Tracey!!!!! :(

Can you feel all of our arms around you???!!!! They're there...

I'm so sorry this is hitting you all at once like this.

I still think you have it beat. It just doesn't make sense to have no positive nodes, clear margins -- and now THIS? "Doesn't compute."

We're praying, Tracey, and we're hoping for the very best for you.

Love,

mary

[abbey]

Thank you Mary, my dear freind. It doesnt make sense to come out clean and then this! Im leaning towards a good outcome, but who knows? It would be terrible to not have a tongue, Ya know?!?

Well I know I can count on you to lift me up to the savior! Thx dear one!:)

[butterfly]

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Praying for you. I feel the same way Mary does you have it beat.

Praying the lump is just that a lump.
shilrey

[Elisabeth]

Praying for you Abbey. Don't know what else to say. :(

[Patty]

I spent all day checking this site for your update. Aaaaggghhhh....what a situation. How difficult for you. I guess this is really what faith is. Leaning on the real God for all of our difficulties, sins, and problems and anguish. I am so glad we have all gotten away from fake sh*t (SA) and are all trying to seek the real Lord in our lives.
Abbey, no matter what, you are in His hands and in our prayers and that is the TRUTH. When we are in a cancerous fear (and I have been there) all we can do is know we are alive today. We WILL do what is necessary. we aren't dead yet.
I know that once I found out my biospy results, it all settled down because then we had a plan of treatment. Once you have this plan, you will follow it and be treated. At least, it is treatable. For 23 years, after I lost my thyroid gland due to cancer . I have had to take daily medicine and have regular checkups. An annoyance, yes. But, I do it. My kids kept me going.
With that said, as Christians, even if we face dying, as we all do one day, our alternative IS paradise. So that, too, is comfort.
I am glad that what you may have to experience is treatable, albeit with a possiblity of disability. A disability that is manageable. Do not dispair.
From all that I gather from your writings, you (as like many of us) are a survivers and will do whatever you have to do. Yes, you will. I know it.
You are loved here.

[abbey]

Thx for the hug shirley, the prayers elisabeth and the encouragment patty! You guyz have come to mean alot to me! I always lacked good fellowship, im glad I have it now.

And Patty, yep if I get the tongue removed that is a disability! But its better to LIVE than to speak!:cool:

[Jerry]

Thank you Mary, my dear freind. It doesnt make sense to come out clean and then this! Im leaning towards a good outcome, but who knows? It would be terrible to not have a tongue, Ya know?!?

Well I know I can count on you to lift me up to the savior! Thx dear one!:)

Dear Abby,,,,
Regardless of outcome,,,,,,on this board you will always have the voice of an "Angel" ;)
Love Jerry

[Anna Marta]

Sending you as much love as you can stand! It must be like living in a bad dream with your eyes open. We care about you and pray for you.

Frankly, I'd like to punch your doctors!!! :mad: Please, please go to the book store and pick up the audio book by Bernie Seigal - Peace Love and Healing. He is a cancer surgeon and I am so sure you will receive a great deal of hope and comfort and great ideas from it. You need some GOOD NEWS from a health care professional for a change. Suggest the audio because when we're upset reading something is not possible, but listening is passive and seems to sink in easier.

Keep on sharing... hugs from
Anna Marta

[mary]

Dear Abby,,,,
Regardless of outcome,,,,,,on this board you will always have the voice of an "Angel" ;)
Love Jerry

Abbey, Jerry is absolutely RIGHT!!! :) :) :) (Jerry: you are a blessed funnel for the Lord's own voice! I praise Him for you - you are a gift!)

Every cancer diagnosis/experience is, as Anna Marta says, a bad dream with your eyes open. (Right, Fellow Survivors?) Abbey, when they gave you the "no speech scenario," you were given "worst-case scenario," which may have no application to you at all in the end. It's "standard operating procedure" when doctors are talking to patients and presenting them with "what might happen," even though much of it is really not likely. When I was 22, I was told I had "a year and a half, maybe two" to live. I was told I'd be "better off with leukemia. We can fight cancer, but we can't fight the death of your bone marrow because we can't make something from nothing." (But God can - and He did.)

I don't even want to say how long ago it was that I was given that death sentence. ;) :rolleyes: Suffice it to say it was premature. The baby that I had a year and a half later - but wasn't supposed to - is now a grown man. And then I got "widespread cancer" years later, but that was taken care of with somewhat radical surgery. I don't want to say how long ago that was, either... Long enough ago that its particulars have become a bit vague in my memory.

One thing I've learned and you must hang onto: God is in control, Abbey. He's in glorious, blessed, beautiful control - and He loves you. No matter what doctors tell you, they're not the main ones in control of your situation. Your precious Heavenly Father is.

Continuing to storm heaven with prayers for you,

Love,

mary

[abbey]

Dear Abby,,,,
Regardless of outcome,,,,,,on this board you will always have the voice of an "Angel" ;)
Love Jerry

awwww, *blush* that was the sweetest words. Your not single right~ :D SHUCKS!

[abbey]

Sending you as much love as you can stand! It must be like living in a bad dream with your eyes open. We care about you and pray for you.

Frankly, I'd like to punch your doctors!!! :mad: Please, please go to the book store and pick up the audio book by Bernie Seigal - Peace Love and Healing. He is a cancer surgeon and I am so sure you will receive a great deal of hope and comfort and great ideas from it. You need some GOOD NEWS from a health care professional for a change. Suggest the audio because when we're upset reading something is not possible, but listening is passive and seems to sink in easier.

Keep on sharing... hugs from
Anna Marta

I will buy that audio book AM! Or maybe check the library! I have found that I need to possibly join a cancer support group in RL. Ill be looking into that also.

It is a nightmare with eyes open! WOW! That says it all. I wanted to punch my dr too. Mainly cause the lump was there since surgery. BUT...*sigh*

Thnk you ann marta, enjoy your day!

[abbey]

Abbey, Jerry is absolutely RIGHT!!! :) :) :) (Jerry: you are a blessed funnel for the Lord's own voice! I praise Him for you - you are a gift!)

Every cancer diagnosis/experience is, as Anna Marta says, a bad dream with your eyes open. (Right, Fellow Survivors?) Abbey, when they gave you the "no speech scenario," you were given "worst-case scenario," which may have no application to you at all in the end. It's "standard operating procedure" when doctors are talking to patients and presenting them with "what might happen," even though much of it is really not likely. When I was 22, I was told I had "a year and a half, maybe two" to live. I was told I'd be "better off with leukemia. We can fight cancer, but we can't fight the death of your bone marrow because we can't make something from nothing." (But God can - and He did.)

I don't even want to say how long ago it was that I was given that death sentence. ;) :rolleyes: Suffice it to say it was premature. The baby that I had a year and a half later - but wasn't supposed to - is now a grown man. And then I got "widespread cancer" years later, but that was taken care of with somewhat radical surgery. I don't want to say how long ago that was, either... Long enough ago that its particulars have become a bit vague in my memory.

One thing I've learned and you must hang onto: God is in control, Abbey. He's in glorious, blessed, beautiful control - and He loves you. No matter what doctors tell you, they're not the main ones in control of your situation. Your precious Heavenly Father is.

Continuing to storm heaven with prayers for you,

Love,

mary


WOW! Im so glad I met you mary because you are a survivor and that inspires me when I need it most! Sometimes i google cancer support forums, but i hear too much bad news. SO i need to keep around the surviors. Your strory is a miracle! Ya know ive heard way worse stories about tongue cancer than my own, but....*big sigh again* I just wish I had a clean bill of health. We will see. Good news tho, my state card for health will be here soon. Im asking ---Khan who takes medicaid!---where I can get follow up treatment!


Thank you all so much!

[jane]

abbey-
I am not a cancer survivor but tomorrow I will be attending a cookout in honor of cancer survivors with my family because my step father has survived cancer.......and his daughter is surviving (at 38 years old) breast cancer right now.

(hugs)

jane

[abbey]

thank you jane! As i stated, it always helps to hear stories of people the "BEAT IT" Im glad to hear that your relatives broke on thru to the other side!

God Bless!