stressed out need prayer!

[abbey]

Sorry to always ask for prayer but my back is against the wall.

MY divorce is on the 22nd. i will lose health insurance as im in the midst of cancer. they found a lump that needs to be biopsied this friday. im gonna ask the dr to give me the results before tuesday because my husband said if i have cancer again he wont divorce. i explained to him that i need monthly checkups, cat scans and see my cancer dr every 3 months. i also oredered some chantix, a drug that has been phenomomal in quitting smoking. im under so much stress, i feel like f- it...just refuse any cancer treatment and die.

im going to the welfare office tommorow, which is a royal pain to try to get a state health card, but even if i get it, it may take 45 days to be effective. MY HUSBAND IS AN IDIOT TO DIVORCE ME in the midst of cancer. dont you think?

also, drs that accept state medical insurance are not going to give the best treatment as they hardly get paid.

can i call the american cancer institute? CAN THEY HELP IF IM ON STATE AID?

im crying, nervous and overwhelmed. why is God allowing all this bad news? Am i out of His favor? IM NOT THE GREATEST CHRISTIAN AS I STRUGGLE WITH TWO ADDICTIONS. Im simply overwheled and i have bipolar too. im frighted that the 3 medications im on, i will not have access to because of losing insurance.

nothin but trouble in abbeys world. plz pray for me.

thx

[Elisabeth]

Praying for you! I think your husband is worse than an idiot to divorce you in the midst of you going through cancer. :(

[mary]

Praying, Abbey...

One step at a time, dearest lady & sister in the Lord Jesus Christ...

Okay, your biopsy is Friday and you'll have the results shortly thereafter. The judge can order your husband to provide health insurance for you for the duration of your cancer treatment...

Let's talk, okay? I'll PM you...

Love,

mary

[abbey]

Thx gals, your support and concern is appreciated!

Why, except for my own stupid mistakes has being a christian been harder than a non-believer? I cant figure out what God is doing! I know He is real, I dont know His character, I dont know the Bible, but doesnt it say He cares for His children? Im feeling orphaned! No offense God, you may come thru tremendously! Just pray girls, its power is a wonderful puzzle!

[abbey]

your right mary about one step at a time too. I tend to worry and overwhelm myself with all my struggles.

One thing at a time and hope in God mercy and care.

[Willow]

Hey Abbey... Im adding my prayers here.
Mary... thanks for your prayers for me. I think I needed them.
HUGS
Amy

[Hope 98]

Praying for you Abbey!

Sometimes I believe that God lets you think you are falling just so that His rescue will be all the more dramatic and certain.

Sometimes I think I just like to believe that I'm smart!

May God lift up his countenance and give you peace.

[jane]

praying........


jane

[Anna Marta]

((((((((((((((((((Prayers for you Abbey))))))))))))))))))))))

Hugs
Anna Marta

[hornblower]

My dearest friend............how can it all be happening and now thats whats so awful and beyond hard to deal with?
Abbey.........this may seem like poison to you and if it does forget I said it ok because I know how that is when somebody present s something to me at a time when I cant take one more piece of advice.......I dont even mean this as advice I juist love you and want so badly to reach out and help you somehow someway.
Maybe if you can get alone in some kind of way so that you can really let out your truest feelings to HIM and see what HE went through too on the cross. I dont know this happened to me the other day and its helped me so much that I somehow dont look at things the same way lately.
Like on Mothers day I just let God have it.............WHY? Didnt YOU GOD! just slap that pastor down right there in front of me for what he and his wife were doing to me?????????????????????? WHY?????????????????
Ive been asking God these questions lately and then at some point and time really beginning to listen to Him.
My SA is certainly nothing compared to your physical or mental or emotional delima right now I dont mean to compare myself at all. I have been sick with chemo though with nobody caring seemingly one flip about me, not one drop of water to drink no food brought to me nothing.........the mastectomy scar raging my port sticking my shoulder in a bad place and then more ports in my arm when that one stopped working then the staff infections and then the tons of antibiotics. I didnt feel God there. In the end He was there Abbey more than I could have ever imagined but it was all alone for me..........turned down by everyone..............that was ok because in the end Abbey unfortuantely it is just us and God there is no one else. Paul went through it Im sure Peter did too and we know John most certainly did. All of Gods greatest people suffer this lonliness. Im not sure why except in that suffering there is a great character being built inside of us a person that we cannot imagine is being created on the inside and there is tremendous glory waiting for us.
We are stars down here.............lights in the darkness..............we have this cloud of witnessess looking down upon us seeing our suffering and constantly amased at our efforts to understand and to go on with our Lord. Those witnesses those people are the real church, the ones that have suffered too just like we have ant they understand us beyond what we can know or comprehend.
Rest Abbey, cry and then rest and by all means dont be ashamed at what you are because you are beautiful beyond all measure to God. Let God handle the details, He is not blind or deaf! He is not an insurance company! He is OUR INSURANCE and OUR HUSBAND too!
See yourself as His little child who can do nothing except rest in His arms. If it is His will for you believe me YOU will LIVE!
Prayer said...............loving you Abbey.
Praying

[Jesus Loves Me]

Praying for you Abbey...God Bless You!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Elisabeth]

I was just thinking of some lyrics to a song "If we never had any problems, we wouldn't know that God could solve them, we didn't know what the grace of God would do!" Blessings, Abby!

[abbey]

My dearest friend............how can it all be happening and now thats whats so awful and beyond hard to deal with?
Abbey.........this may seem like poison to you and if it does forget I said it ok because I know how that is when somebody present s something to me at a time when I cant take one more piece of advice.......I dont even mean this as advice I juist love you and want so badly to reach out and help you somehow someway.
Maybe if you can get alone in some kind of way so that you can really let out your truest feelings to HIM and see what HE went through too on the cross. I dont know this happened to me the other day and its helped me so much that I somehow dont look at things the same way lately.
Like on Mothers day I just let God have it.............WHY? Didnt YOU GOD! just slap that pastor down right there in front of me for what he and his wife were doing to me?????????????????????? WHY?????????????????
Ive been asking God these questions lately and then at some point and time really beginning to listen to Him.
My SA is certainly nothing compared to your physical or mental or emotional delima right now I dont mean to compare myself at all. I have been sick with chemo though with nobody caring seemingly one flip about me, not one drop of water to drink no food brought to me nothing.........the mastectomy scar raging my port sticking my shoulder in a bad place and then more ports in my arm when that one stopped working then the staff infections and then the tons of antibiotics. I didnt feel God there. In the end He was there Abbey more than I could have ever imagined but it was all alone for me..........turned down by everyone..............that was ok because in the end Abbey unfortuantely it is just us and God there is no one else. Paul went through it Im sure Peter did too and we know John most certainly did. All of Gods greatest people suffer this lonliness. Im not sure why except in that suffering there is a great character being built inside of us a person that we cannot imagine is being created on the inside and there is tremendous glory waiting for us.
We are stars down here.............lights in the darkness..............we have this cloud of witnessess looking down upon us seeing our suffering and constantly amased at our efforts to understand and to go on with our Lord. Those witnesses those people are the real church, the ones that have suffered too just like we have ant they understand us beyond what we can know or comprehend.
Rest Abbey, cry and then rest and by all means dont be ashamed at what you are because you are beautiful beyond all measure to God. Let God handle the details, He is not blind or deaf! He is not an insurance company! He is OUR INSURANCE and OUR HUSBAND too!
See yourself as His little child who can do nothing except rest in His arms. If it is His will for you believe me YOU will LIVE!
Prayer said...............loving you Abbey.
Praying

You have quite a way with words hornblower. That was a beatiful post. Thank you! I will have state insurance within 10 days soooooo....its just a matter of finding drs that care.

Thank you all for continued prayer! It has been hard!

[abbey]

I was just thinking of some lyrics to a song "If we never had any problems, we wouldn't know that God could solve them, we didn't know what the grace of God would do!" Blessings, Abby!

Thats funny because im relying totally on God, and have a little excitement about what He might do.

tx ALL

[mary]

Having been through cancer - and a few thousand other things - myself, I know that there are few things better than to hold a card from a friend in my hands... A card is like medicine that doesn't have side effects! :) Every so often, I look at the stack of cards that I got from people around the time of my cancer surgery - and boy, are they ever day-brighteners to go through, even after all these years!

Abbey, is it possible to send more cards? If so, everyone, they can be forwarded to her as we did before, addressed:

Abbey
c/o P. O. Box 6156
Plymouth, MI 48170-0156

Love to all,

mary