Elisabeth
05-14-2007, 09:55 PM
My MIL hasn't been able to sleep very well lately, and when we went to her house yesterday morning, she looked terrible. :( Her problems sleeping started about the same time as her pastor chewed out my niece (her granddaughter) and refused to baptize niece's BF. :mad: My hubby and I think that the stress has a whole lot to do with MIL's sleeping problems. And I just realized something with my own past with that pastor that has frightening implications for mother in law.
I realized that when it came right down to it, the pastor did not want just my body, he wanted me. He wanted my total devotion, giving myself totally to him. He didn't want me to give myself to God, and to follow Christ; he wanted me to give myself to him, and to just follow him. I realize that's what the pastor wanted from everyone; devotion to him. And for most people it was more subtle than it was for me, but the end result was the same - devotion to pastor, and it felt like devotion to God. And my MIL was sucked into that too. So she is obviously "rudderless" right now; she's been back to church a few times but her eyes have been open and she can't hardly look at him. I know that "lost" feeling, and it haunts me and makes me feel slightly nauseated thinking back to it. And MIL isn't well; she's partially paralyzed by a stroke she had 2 years ago.
I realized that when it came right down to it, the pastor did not want just my body, he wanted me. He wanted my total devotion, giving myself totally to him. He didn't want me to give myself to God, and to follow Christ; he wanted me to give myself to him, and to just follow him. I realize that's what the pastor wanted from everyone; devotion to him. And for most people it was more subtle than it was for me, but the end result was the same - devotion to pastor, and it felt like devotion to God. And my MIL was sucked into that too. So she is obviously "rudderless" right now; she's been back to church a few times but her eyes have been open and she can't hardly look at him. I know that "lost" feeling, and it haunts me and makes me feel slightly nauseated thinking back to it. And MIL isn't well; she's partially paralyzed by a stroke she had 2 years ago.