Our own Gesthamanes

[Emerging]

As I was preparing for work today, I was thinking about our poor sick little gerbil girl. I saw her sitting in a "desolate" area of her cage, looking very lonely but also not wanting me to approach her. My heart ached for her - how frustrating to be doing all the right gerbily things and yet be sick! As I continued to keep an eye on her I suddenly sensed how very scared and alone she felt, as if all her support was gone. But I was right there, holding her close in prayer ... what was happening?

Then the thought gently came to me how we must each face our own Gesthamanes in this life. Nothing like what Jesus did for us, in no way to take away at all from His mighty suffering for you and me .... but just like how He too, was left alone for a bit while in the Garden. That He could do His part "all by Himself" .... that He could see the measure of Himself in the midst of such a difficult task.

I know words aren't going well for me right now ... but it just was so clear how our little gerbil girl was having her moment in Gesthamane too, this morning, ... and a short while later, she was caring for herself, she was back in her nest, ... she was reconnected with all creation.

Hopefully this thought will be better filled out and I can explain better after work this evening. I do thank all for their prayers on our sweet gerbil's behalf - they are working! I wanted most of all to post this at NACR, too, but ?it's down? right now?

Are they converting? Or what? Whyever they were down when I tried to access them, I must head off to work now, so I pray for good days for all! Take care! And thanks again!! :)

[Oopsie Daisey]

Dear Emerging:

For some reason the page for NACR was unaccessible for a few minutes but back up now...

Yes, please do keep me updated on your journal and what a good analogy.

Prayers for a better day at work today and many prayers for thoughts to be collective and for you to be intact during all your duress.

Much love and prayers,
Melanie

[Emerging]

Thank you Melanie for your thoughts. Maybe I should admit that I do sense when their hold on their bodies is weakening as they prepare to exit this life. I felt her hold growing weaker, but now it seems to be growing stronger again. I totally felt it that time with the boy who nearly drowned (but is still here with us!!!!) and I've felt other sweet creatures bid me adieu as they head off to the afterlife. These reassurances have included me so strongly sensing them afterwards, or my soul feels them brush up against my cheek as they head off ... so very sad but yet somehow comforting when they did this. ... They are SO aware!!

And I do NOT feel that sense of a weakening hold anymore about our little girl! But her breathing is still labored and she's still not all well so please, if you will, prayers for her still. I am afraid to say outloud I think she just might make it ... because I feel like that jinxes things when I do. Yet our appraisals must be honest .. and we need not fear the truth ... I have so far still to go in my healing. sigh. Thank you again for your love for such a dear sweet little innocent one. :o

[Oopsie Daisey]

Dear Emerging:

Most assuredly I will pray for her! Please continue to keep me posted... I was wondering why we had to have our own Gesthamane's but I guess that is why or what makes us HIS~ or maybe it is getting rid of pride, ego, stuff not needed for the journey.. Certainly I mean false pride and ego's that are not healthy but because we were born with sin, that just automatically makes us a product for our Gesthamanes. I guess you can tell I want out of that part of things very badly and so as you look on your innocent girl, it probably makes it so much more real that life just isn't fair and that some just don't deserve it and others need to go through it many times but all get it.

Will continue in prayers.

Melanie

[Emerging]

(((Melanie))), thank you for your continued kindnesses and prayers. It funny/cool/weird/interesting how things all work out, cuz I think it was this past Friday's "Joan of Arcadia" where they spoke of our "times of desolation" ... which like you said we all seem to have to go through [no!!!! don't wanna!!!!! :mad: :eek: :( ] ... "but these things shall be for your good if ye walk uprightly" from whereever that scripture is. .... SIGH!!!!

But isn't having a happy, joyful life that works WELL for me also "for my good"? .... Or is all this nonsense suffering stuff actually helping us get to that life that is happy and joyful and works WELL for us?

Well, ok IF it's like we're trimming away all the stuff that's holding us back ... but must it hurt so much in the process?? That whole pain thing is what really gets to me ... so yes, I have some "growth opportunities" there BUT what about growing in the areas of managing a happy healthy joyful life that works? Most of all for my children, I want them to see that while of course it's great to have someone special in our lives, we can do pretty darn good on our own, too.

Thanks again for caring you sweetie, you, and I hope that today is good for you even if it is a Sunday. :o :)

[Jerry]

Dear Emerging,,,,
What a wonderful post,,,,I think you stated it very well,,,,,,,,I got it !!! :D
Love Jerry

[Emerging]

Garsh, Jerry ... thanks!! :)

And of course something else came to mind tonight ... how if I remember right we are like the "lady in the wilderness" that ?Revelations? speaks of, being kept in the wilderness away from things like going to church so that we can be strengthened in the Lord. Unless I am totally mixing up my scriptures here which is a definite possiblity. ... can you tell the church I used to go to wanted us to "bring the scriptures to life" and to "see God's hand in everything"? :rolleyes:

Take care and see you around the forums! And be good! (ok, my children always tell me that!! don't know why .... :eek: :o :rolleyes: :p :) ....

[Jerry]

Dear Emerging,,,,,
I think you have the right idea about that Rev.passage However most Christian Churchs so vehimently seek to divorce themselves from our Hebrew Heiratage that they smother this beautiful passage.....Read Rev 12 verses 13-17 Here are some key points to keep in your mind as you study the passage...I am sure this will increase your depth of understanding.....
The Male child is Christ
The Woman is Isreal
The Two wings of a great eagle(what is the national symbol of the most powerful Christian nation on Earth???)
Verse 17 What Religion embraces the "Commandments" and also Jesus Christ,,,,,,Three guesses ,,,first two don't count :D
Love Jerry

[Emerging]

I think you have the right idea about that Rev.passage However most Christian Churchs so vehimently seek to divorce themselves from our Hebrew Heiratage that they smother this beautiful passage.....Read Rev 12 verses 13-17 Here are some key points to keep in your mind as you study the passage...I am sure this will increase your depth of understanding.....
The Male child is Christ
The Woman is Isreal
The Two wings of a great eagle(what is the national symbol of the most powerful Christian nation on Earth???)
Verse 17 What Religion embraces the "Commandments" and also Jesus Christ,,,,,,Three guesses ,,,first two don't count :D
Love Jerry

Wow, Jerry, this is cool!! Thanks for your info here! Yeah, it really is like we are being "called" out of our hurtful churches and into the wilderness where we can be nourished for a time... cool! :cool:

[Emerging]

Smokey's gone. Breaks my heart to write this, but she was getting so miserable that I prayed for her departure last night ... and she left shortly after we all went to bed. She was SO thoughtful even in her last hours!!

She was getting so miserable looking and I finally thought of "the shot" to just end it all and let her be. Yet as soon as I did that, I seemed to hear her take righteous offense at my thought ... how dare I take from her her last few hours on earth ... how dare I seek to take control of *her* act of dying. ... I share this because I never thought of dying this way, but only how we live as being so very important. ... could it be that how we die is also of great importance?

But Smokey would not want us to mourn her passing, but instead to celebrate her renewal of connection with all her loved ones both on this side and the next. :o

She would want us to remember how important every day and every life is ... and hopes we could make the absolute best of them that we can! :)

Finally, Smokey would want us all to just be cool! :cool:

Thank you for allowing me to turn this sad news into a celebration of her continuing journey and what I've learned from one precious little gerbil girl. :)