hornblower
09-15-2006, 03:32 AM
Im going to my little grandsons grandparents day lunch at his school today. Ill be picking up Mc Donalds. You guys want me to bring you anything? Lost six and a half pounds so far. Feeling thin even though I dont look it. Its a good feeling, one Id like to get used too. Haha.
Im not one of these women that always has the same look about her......know what I mean?
I change when ever the fancy strikes me and this fancy of being fluffy as Jerry calls it, is affecting my health big time. I realise this isnt a weight control clinic here but forgive me if I talk about it now and then. This is a biggy for me. I started my heavy duty working out exercise yesterday. Im a lot more out of shape then I realised. I wanted to play that song Breathless to the work out tape, seemed apprapo (?) thats looking mispelled too I wish I knew how to activate the spelling thing on here.
Anyway couldnt sleep took a nap yesterday and so Im up now.
Anyway what I really wanted to say is I have been watching Joyce Meyer for a long time and I tell you, she is really helping me with a whole lot of things. She is really just about the only teacher on that tv thing I can take. Every once in awhile it happens that someone speaks to my heart and its good but so seldom and I end up just being so confused. Plus I want it to be Jesus Im following not a person in the first place so I try to stay away from it. This week with her has been so perfect for all of the things Im going through right now, the letting go, the persection, depressions etc.
I have only one thing to say a little negative about her teachings though and this is for us guys that dont 'make' it(?) Im sure she doesnt want to leave this impression but its so easy to see it this way from what she is saying.
If you do this and that thing you will end up like her! Money, fame, friends, family all there for you, huge ministry etc. Like I say I dont think she mens it to come out this way and plus maybe she will go on to talk about that this morning too I hope so but I dont believe that Gods people have to be in a lime light to be absolutely the most precious child to God.
I have had so many people well meaning im sure but nevertheless its not helpful for me at all, put trips on me as to what I should be doing with my life. I need to own a store............NOT! I need to write a book............maybe and as a matter of fact I am writing a book but I doubt many people will read it and its ok with me if they dont. Anyway NOT! I need to go get on DR.Phil oh please help me with this one? Im a this or a that. This all happened to me in the past not recently.
None of it is really whats in my heart to be doing with the last years I have here. One thing is for sure I know I wont be a Joyce Meyer. If I knew her I know I could not get a long with her personally. Her personality and mine are so very different. Shes a mega disciplinarian, everything done at a certain time and a certain day. One of those people.........we'd really eventually butt heads......maybe.
Im not wanting to meet her or anything this is beginning to sound like I adore her or something. Not true, its just hey she's helping me and I like listening to her, its all good. I like how she uses a lot of scriptures and stories from the old testament to show that we are not alone here at all. She talks about her getting serious SA for many years and many places.......she laughs and says welcome to the Holy Spirit hospital, the church is for sick people not well people.
That was a cool thing to say. She also said theres a time for sermons, when someone is hurting thats NOT the time. Cool. We've all had that one. Then she said a lot on loneliness. She gave some startling statistics on suicide especially with young people. I struggle with it from time to time and its hard very hard to fight, had a huge bought of it this week, wasnt easy to pull out of but I did. Jesus in the chair.
Anyway does anybody else watch her? My former pastor would give me such a weird look everytime I mentioned her, like I was so dumb. Maybe he wasnt meaning that who knows I never in a million years could figure him out and why was I even trying?
Anyway shes been through a lot of my same issues and shes open about it. I appreciate that. I know shes had to been through hell because of opening up about those subjects.
Another thing I am doing lately is seeing all of my mistakes I made when I went to that church. When I look back on me when I went there Im like................what the heck was I thinking??????????????? It must have been temporary insanity.
Yep I was being me. Haha. In any case I shouldnt have expected anyone to understand me. Thats the other really meaningful thing she has been talking about is how we feel when nobody understands us. Ive always felt like that ALWAYS! I know my family didnt understand me growing up because hey I never told anyone anything........I didnt know you could? They didnt do it so why or how could I
So just up this morning looking forward to the day spending time with my new Daddy God. AND you guys so HI and have a good Friday ok, esp. you Janice, you are so in my thoughts.
Its finally cool down here. I might not be on this weekend and then again I might be because at least that will be my husbands lap top, not this thing. grrrrrrrrrrrrr downloaded the wrong virus protection.........I dont know what Im doing and there are no phone numbers anywhere for anything. Does anyone know Nortons or Symantecs phone number?
Im not one of these women that always has the same look about her......know what I mean?
I change when ever the fancy strikes me and this fancy of being fluffy as Jerry calls it, is affecting my health big time. I realise this isnt a weight control clinic here but forgive me if I talk about it now and then. This is a biggy for me. I started my heavy duty working out exercise yesterday. Im a lot more out of shape then I realised. I wanted to play that song Breathless to the work out tape, seemed apprapo (?) thats looking mispelled too I wish I knew how to activate the spelling thing on here.
Anyway couldnt sleep took a nap yesterday and so Im up now.
Anyway what I really wanted to say is I have been watching Joyce Meyer for a long time and I tell you, she is really helping me with a whole lot of things. She is really just about the only teacher on that tv thing I can take. Every once in awhile it happens that someone speaks to my heart and its good but so seldom and I end up just being so confused. Plus I want it to be Jesus Im following not a person in the first place so I try to stay away from it. This week with her has been so perfect for all of the things Im going through right now, the letting go, the persection, depressions etc.
I have only one thing to say a little negative about her teachings though and this is for us guys that dont 'make' it(?) Im sure she doesnt want to leave this impression but its so easy to see it this way from what she is saying.
If you do this and that thing you will end up like her! Money, fame, friends, family all there for you, huge ministry etc. Like I say I dont think she mens it to come out this way and plus maybe she will go on to talk about that this morning too I hope so but I dont believe that Gods people have to be in a lime light to be absolutely the most precious child to God.
I have had so many people well meaning im sure but nevertheless its not helpful for me at all, put trips on me as to what I should be doing with my life. I need to own a store............NOT! I need to write a book............maybe and as a matter of fact I am writing a book but I doubt many people will read it and its ok with me if they dont. Anyway NOT! I need to go get on DR.Phil oh please help me with this one? Im a this or a that. This all happened to me in the past not recently.
None of it is really whats in my heart to be doing with the last years I have here. One thing is for sure I know I wont be a Joyce Meyer. If I knew her I know I could not get a long with her personally. Her personality and mine are so very different. Shes a mega disciplinarian, everything done at a certain time and a certain day. One of those people.........we'd really eventually butt heads......maybe.
Im not wanting to meet her or anything this is beginning to sound like I adore her or something. Not true, its just hey she's helping me and I like listening to her, its all good. I like how she uses a lot of scriptures and stories from the old testament to show that we are not alone here at all. She talks about her getting serious SA for many years and many places.......she laughs and says welcome to the Holy Spirit hospital, the church is for sick people not well people.
That was a cool thing to say. She also said theres a time for sermons, when someone is hurting thats NOT the time. Cool. We've all had that one. Then she said a lot on loneliness. She gave some startling statistics on suicide especially with young people. I struggle with it from time to time and its hard very hard to fight, had a huge bought of it this week, wasnt easy to pull out of but I did. Jesus in the chair.
Anyway does anybody else watch her? My former pastor would give me such a weird look everytime I mentioned her, like I was so dumb. Maybe he wasnt meaning that who knows I never in a million years could figure him out and why was I even trying?
Anyway shes been through a lot of my same issues and shes open about it. I appreciate that. I know shes had to been through hell because of opening up about those subjects.
Another thing I am doing lately is seeing all of my mistakes I made when I went to that church. When I look back on me when I went there Im like................what the heck was I thinking??????????????? It must have been temporary insanity.
Yep I was being me. Haha. In any case I shouldnt have expected anyone to understand me. Thats the other really meaningful thing she has been talking about is how we feel when nobody understands us. Ive always felt like that ALWAYS! I know my family didnt understand me growing up because hey I never told anyone anything........I didnt know you could? They didnt do it so why or how could I
So just up this morning looking forward to the day spending time with my new Daddy God. AND you guys so HI and have a good Friday ok, esp. you Janice, you are so in my thoughts.
Its finally cool down here. I might not be on this weekend and then again I might be because at least that will be my husbands lap top, not this thing. grrrrrrrrrrrrr downloaded the wrong virus protection.........I dont know what Im doing and there are no phone numbers anywhere for anything. Does anyone know Nortons or Symantecs phone number?