A way I cope

[Anna Marta]

I'm writing my way out of this hole. Thought I would share, if anyone is interested. In my journal it has more form and flow with indentations, so I apologize for the boring form it has here.

Can it be happening again?
I thought I was so safe
so sure
so absolutely secure
I saw the signs
sensed the unexplainable
felt the pinches
Was there a change in the temperaure?
less eye contact
shorter chats
walking away
The reactions
as my mind and my feelings
tried to come to terms
with what my spirit knew
My mind asked for reasons
My heart cried out for answers
But my wounded spirit - - knew
and it sounded the siren
and rang the bells
and flashed the inner lights
The thing revealed itself when
it opened its' mouth, showed its' fangs
and said...
I don't want you to...
I don't like it when...
I haven't released you...
Ah,
the relief to finally discover
my spirit had spoken a truth
my heart was afraid to hear
And now my mind had the proof
You were welcome
until
you tried to be you
instead of being like us
and...
we don't do that here.

[ex-shep]

Journalling was never my style; however hats off to a great start. Any good therapist will say that writing is a great way to recover. I had not my first cup of coffe yet. What I glanced at looked great. Any other takers?

[Jerry]

There's something to be said for sitting down and writing out our beliefs,,,,,if for nothing else just so we can break with them ;) .....Great start Anna :D
Love Jerry

[beginagainrose]

((((((ANNA MARTA)))))))!!!!....You are a writer! Dear One! You GO! Keep journaling... God will show you what to do with it when He's ready...when He shows you? JUMP IN!:)