jane
08-29-2006, 05:49 AM
I know that we are not supposed to use names.......
but my heart is crying for James.
I had to bring my foster son to a medical appointment this week and bumped into James..........
James is the son of my girlfriend who died of cancer this past year.
(for those new members; a deaconess (a close friend) of my old church died of ovarian cancer because she was standing on a word (prophecy) from God about giving birth to her own baby and didn't have a hysterectomy...she was standing on FAITH that God would heal her...........her and her husband had adopted 3 special needs children out of our foster care system....James is her youngest son)
James isn't doing too well. The only person WHO TOTALLY LOVED AND UNDERSTOOD HIM is dead.
His father loves him.....but his mother was able to help everyone understand him.
James has attachment reactive; aspergers and I think fetal alcohol syndrome...and is 17 years old.
He was telling me that he is depressed and wants to run far away from here and his life. He is looking for his biological family in Florida....and spoke of painful things going on at church....(which was his rock)....and school...and at home.
I Guess that I am really angry....
Angry at his mother for not getting the hysterectomy....
Angry at God for leaving this child unprotected; uncovered.....
AND REALLY ANGRY at the church because they have moved on from the "SHOW" of his mother's death and have forgotten the family.............
Everything to them is a freaking perfomance....and the next play is the next subject- wedding, funeral whatever.........
ANGRY at myself because I don't have it in me to call the family myself to see if I could help...........
UGHHHHHHHH
jane
but my heart is crying for James.
I had to bring my foster son to a medical appointment this week and bumped into James..........
James is the son of my girlfriend who died of cancer this past year.
(for those new members; a deaconess (a close friend) of my old church died of ovarian cancer because she was standing on a word (prophecy) from God about giving birth to her own baby and didn't have a hysterectomy...she was standing on FAITH that God would heal her...........her and her husband had adopted 3 special needs children out of our foster care system....James is her youngest son)
James isn't doing too well. The only person WHO TOTALLY LOVED AND UNDERSTOOD HIM is dead.
His father loves him.....but his mother was able to help everyone understand him.
James has attachment reactive; aspergers and I think fetal alcohol syndrome...and is 17 years old.
He was telling me that he is depressed and wants to run far away from here and his life. He is looking for his biological family in Florida....and spoke of painful things going on at church....(which was his rock)....and school...and at home.
I Guess that I am really angry....
Angry at his mother for not getting the hysterectomy....
Angry at God for leaving this child unprotected; uncovered.....
AND REALLY ANGRY at the church because they have moved on from the "SHOW" of his mother's death and have forgotten the family.............
Everything to them is a freaking perfomance....and the next play is the next subject- wedding, funeral whatever.........
ANGRY at myself because I don't have it in me to call the family myself to see if I could help...........
UGHHHHHHHH
jane