hornblower
07-13-2006, 09:45 AM
I think all of this is very cruel on both sides. Its a good lesson for all of us though that this is exactly what happened to everyone of us. They have their view, we have ours.
Its really bringing back all of my abuse or whatever I can now call it.
When that preachers wife said that to me about my daughter it was as if hell itself stabbed me directly in the heart AGAIN!
When I 'gently' tried to confront her about what she had said to me she threw a huge fit and said she never said any of it to me HOW could she have said that?
You know I dont know how she could say it but I do know she did and that it nearly killed me.
For those of you who dont know what she said here it is again, "People have been going to my husband and saying to him that they are sick and tired of you over and over again talking about YOUR RAPED DAUGHTER!" She was yelling at me and smirking.........almost lauughing when she said it. "you started out so good here what happened to you?" she said.
How could I forget that?
It was such a lie too and i knew that it was because as I told her. Well, this is nothing but gossip because My daughter wasnt RAPED! Then she really guffawed over that and laughed even more.
What would you do? This was all on the phone. So in a way its just like on here except I cant proove anything of course its not written down.
Im sure shes had a good old time telling everyone that I am insane.
My husband even talked to her husband the pastor to set up a time when the two of us could talk this out with him being there. I was using ALL Of my so called therapy on this situation. All of my spirituality. I forgave her immediately knowing it most certainly could only be her pain and the devil that could say or do such a thing and hurt me so badly.
You know what I could spend forever going over and over and over it but what good will it do? It doesnt go away. The pastor never called me to set up anything. I was totally ignored and all of my friends turned against me wanting me to come to their weekend retreat for the women and expose the entire thing then out in front of the entire church so they could 'heal' her! Her???????????
I wouldnt go. I had other plans a wedding of a favorite daughter of my oldest friend. I had promised I would come not only for her but for her children. I was very close to this family. I was torn between going to this or the retreat in the first place but twhen this thing happened there was no way I would go to that retreat. Now that I am thinking about it..........they could have finished me off if I would have gone?
It was all so evil.
I bought her a gift and sent it to her..the pastors wife.......I felt like God was telling me to pray burning coals of fire on her. In my own way though that did it for me. That gift it was like saying its over Im gone I wont deal with this any longer its way too mcuh pain. No one but God knows my pain for my only daughter.
I also knew what God was treaching me in this situation. This is what I learned. "Who do I think I am? God? Jesus? I cannot stand "His persecution" and this is only a tiny drop of what He went through for me and for her and for all of us. What did I think I could accomplish for Him? I knew she was sick. She had massive problems everybody knew that. She would go off on all of us anytime she wanted and all anyone did was just sit there and let her go on. I thought it was cruel to do that when it was so obvious she needed help. Besides that she was hurting people I loved too. My friends she always attacked people that were samller than she was less power in the church. I couldnt stand it. What did I think I could do with her? Heal her? No! Im NOT GOD NEVER WILL BE!"
Now Im not God here either.
I came here to get some help from people I thought were working on the same thing that I was working on. Guess its here, just like its everywhere.
Little bity children, playing a very mean game with each other. Here we all are caught right in the middle.
Go ahead and stay in highschool. I can see that I want to graduate even though I never did!
Its really bringing back all of my abuse or whatever I can now call it.
When that preachers wife said that to me about my daughter it was as if hell itself stabbed me directly in the heart AGAIN!
When I 'gently' tried to confront her about what she had said to me she threw a huge fit and said she never said any of it to me HOW could she have said that?
You know I dont know how she could say it but I do know she did and that it nearly killed me.
For those of you who dont know what she said here it is again, "People have been going to my husband and saying to him that they are sick and tired of you over and over again talking about YOUR RAPED DAUGHTER!" She was yelling at me and smirking.........almost lauughing when she said it. "you started out so good here what happened to you?" she said.
How could I forget that?
It was such a lie too and i knew that it was because as I told her. Well, this is nothing but gossip because My daughter wasnt RAPED! Then she really guffawed over that and laughed even more.
What would you do? This was all on the phone. So in a way its just like on here except I cant proove anything of course its not written down.
Im sure shes had a good old time telling everyone that I am insane.
My husband even talked to her husband the pastor to set up a time when the two of us could talk this out with him being there. I was using ALL Of my so called therapy on this situation. All of my spirituality. I forgave her immediately knowing it most certainly could only be her pain and the devil that could say or do such a thing and hurt me so badly.
You know what I could spend forever going over and over and over it but what good will it do? It doesnt go away. The pastor never called me to set up anything. I was totally ignored and all of my friends turned against me wanting me to come to their weekend retreat for the women and expose the entire thing then out in front of the entire church so they could 'heal' her! Her???????????
I wouldnt go. I had other plans a wedding of a favorite daughter of my oldest friend. I had promised I would come not only for her but for her children. I was very close to this family. I was torn between going to this or the retreat in the first place but twhen this thing happened there was no way I would go to that retreat. Now that I am thinking about it..........they could have finished me off if I would have gone?
It was all so evil.
I bought her a gift and sent it to her..the pastors wife.......I felt like God was telling me to pray burning coals of fire on her. In my own way though that did it for me. That gift it was like saying its over Im gone I wont deal with this any longer its way too mcuh pain. No one but God knows my pain for my only daughter.
I also knew what God was treaching me in this situation. This is what I learned. "Who do I think I am? God? Jesus? I cannot stand "His persecution" and this is only a tiny drop of what He went through for me and for her and for all of us. What did I think I could accomplish for Him? I knew she was sick. She had massive problems everybody knew that. She would go off on all of us anytime she wanted and all anyone did was just sit there and let her go on. I thought it was cruel to do that when it was so obvious she needed help. Besides that she was hurting people I loved too. My friends she always attacked people that were samller than she was less power in the church. I couldnt stand it. What did I think I could do with her? Heal her? No! Im NOT GOD NEVER WILL BE!"
Now Im not God here either.
I came here to get some help from people I thought were working on the same thing that I was working on. Guess its here, just like its everywhere.
Little bity children, playing a very mean game with each other. Here we all are caught right in the middle.
Go ahead and stay in highschool. I can see that I want to graduate even though I never did!