To All...

[Janice]

Please accept my aplogies.

I have let my fear and anxiety over the fact that I have cancer, take over, and I have not allowed my God to take care of this.

I have not trusted in Him like I should have, and I absolutely NEED to do that right now!

I AM LITERALLY SCARED TO DEATH AND AM IN TEARS OVER ALL OF THIS.

To be accused by Illuminated of having my cancer go to my brain was just the icing on the cake but, I know I have to move past this in order to survive and thrive.

God..please forgive me

((((((((Forum Family))))))....please forgive me

Admin......please forgive me.

[Jerry]

There was this man walking in a garden 2000 years ago,stopped to pray,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,much the same prayer as this ;)

[Janice]

There was this man walking in a garden 2000 years ago,stopped to pray,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,much the same prayer as this ;)




I love you!!!

[Willow]

Love you Janice... I pray for you every day.

Amy

[Janice]

Love you Janice... I pray for you every day.

Amy

THANK YOU AMY!!!

I LOVE YOU TOO!

[Satscout]

***hugs***

Haven't stopped praying for you.

[Carmen]

Hey, nothing to forgive. :)

Feeling scared in such a circumstance is normal. Maybe trusting is not quite the right word now, would resting do better?

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28.

[hornblower]

dear Janice, It was a misunderstanding thats what it was. The hard thing here is we dont get to see anyone we dont really know theiur expressions it plays on our minds.
now i dont think that any of us want to be like that church I went too and make you PAY for it...............its a misunderstanding. I think its still misunderstood. I hate it that communication is like this. This is our abuse right here!

Weve got to get past it all of us weve got to try to learn and do better somehow to get healed.
Cancer is one of the worst I know it is.
Now guess what my sister in law said to me right after my lumppectomy?

"What did you do to bring this on yourself?" I threw her out of my house. Almost literally. I was so mad it was comical.
She to this day does not understand what she said that was wrong?
Shes not a Christian how could she know what I had been through in the charismatic movement with all of that false teaching stuff.
When I tried to explain it to her, then she said,"oh its them, its not me!"

Ye gads she didnt even see what she did wrong what she believes is such a lie and she still believes it to this day?
What can you do?

Words! They can suck!
Janice dont you worry and illuminated dont you worry about a thing. We all love you and lets let it go and I love you both and dont feel guilty please dont!
I dont know theres got to be a way to get past this stuff, this pain, this anger.

Please please be friends again. Please.