no need to respond..

[Janice]

...just one of my 'ramblings'.....

hubby & I go in a huge fight last night. Of course we kissed & made up and I know it was just both of our emotions comming out.

he doesn't like to talk about this. I told him I don't want to force him but there are days when I am going to need HIM and only HIM so, he better learn how to adjust.

I'm getting scared. I know fear is not of God and that is is simply "False Evidence Appering Real" and I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED ON MY GOD AND WHAT HE WILL DO AND NOT THE FEAR!!

I know what it's like for my friends and family too. I've been on the "other side of cancer" more times then I'd like to count, and it is EXTREMELY HARD on the loved ones.

I know this is a disease but I can't help thinking that my smoking or my past promiscuity caused this, therefore I am putting my loved one's through hell.

I am so very sorry that my loved ones have to go through this! It IS NOT a fun place to be!!

Thanks for being here so I can vent and please KEEP PRAYING!!

I have never had to trust God like I have to now. I literally have to trust Him with my life!!!

[profnachos]

Well, I will respond whether you like it or not :D .

Thanks for sharing. I know at least for myself, being around people who are going through a crisis forces me to look at my own life and confront my own fears, so knowingly or unknowningly, you are being a blessing to them. (BTW, I made an appointment for a physical for the first time in about 5 years.)

...just one of my 'ramblings'.....

hubby & I go in a huge fight last night. Of course we kissed & made up and I know it was just both of our emotions comming out.

he doesn't like to talk about this. I told him I don't want to force him but there are days when I am going to need HIM and only HIM so, he better learn how to adjust.

I'm getting scared. I know fear is not of God and that is is simply "False Evidence Appering Real" and I NEED TO STAY FOCUSED ON MY GOD AND WHAT HE WILL DO AND NOT THE FEAR!!

I know what it's like for my friends and family too. I've been on the "other side of cancer" more times then I'd like to count, and it is EXTREMELY HARD on the loved ones.

I know this is a disease but I can't help thinking that my smoking or my past promiscuity caused this, therefore I am putting my loved one's through hell.

I am so very sorry that my loved ones have to go through this! It IS NOT a fun place to be!!

Thanks for being here so I can vent and please KEEP PRAYING!!

I have never had to trust God like I have to now. I literally have to trust Him with my life!!!

[Jerry]

I know this is a disease but I can't help thinking that my smoking or my past promiscuity caused this, therefore I am putting my loved one's through hell.



Dear Janice,,,
Yes, those two things,,,,ALONG WITH THOUSANDS OF OTHER THINGS IN OUR ENVIRONMENT,,,,,, could cause it,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,or not ;)
Love Jerry

[Illuminated]

I have never had to trust God like I have to now. I literally have to trust Him with my life!!!I think that trusting God with our life is the hardest thing on earth to do. You are brave to be doing it right now! I wish I had that kind of depth of trust....

You might find this website reassuring and helpful:
http://www.hebrew4christians.com/Meditations/Bittachon/bittachon1.html

"Although not without its cognitive side, (trust) primarily involves an act of the heart and will: when I trust in God I emotionally decide to put my expectations, my hopes, my dreams, my desires – in short, all of my life – into the care of the Lord and His provision for me."

Take what works :) and leave the rest.

[mary]

(((((Janice)))))

Your husband may be fairly frightened - and that's not a comfortable male place to be. I know: we went through it when I had cancer. The Lord will take care of him in this - and we'll all pray for him. It turns out that what's happened to you has also happened to him; it's a "couples" disease, not something that's happened only to you. I know that your husband will learn how to be of support to you and in what ways he'll need to do this. Right now, this is so new to him that he may not know exactly what he needs to do and say for and to you. He will get his bearings and he will come through for you!

Can I just give you a few verses? Psalm 112:7; Isaiah 43:1-2; Deuteronomy 33:27 and 1 Peter 5:6-7 (there are so many others!). A few years ago, I had a major ovarian cancer scare and some of the works of C. H. Spurgeon, where he addresses dealing with physical afflictions, which he had many of, and depression, with which he certainly was afflicted, were of tremendous help to me.

The Lord will never abandon you or your loved ones - of that you can be absolutely sure.

Sure, we have to trust Him with our lives -- we all do... But you're looking at a specific circumstance right now, and I understand that. I myself am here only until my myelodysplasia turns into leukemia. At that time, my doctors' plan is only to make me comfortable because I can't have any more chemotherapy and I can't have any more blood transfusions (have had my lifetime's allotment of both, it seems). I'm cool with it because I'm looking only at Him through that knowledge and that prism of hope... Every day brings a little more "tearing away" from the "hold" I have on this world. I won't say it isn't frightening because yeah, pain is scary. Medical "procedures" are scary - but they don't last forever. Only the peace and the joy and the love and mercy of God last forever! :D We can be content in whatever circumstances we are in because He's there with us and He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Dear Janice, know that both you and your husband are being lifted up in prayer right now - and we will all continue to do so!

Love,

mary

[Janice]

(((((Janice)))))

Your husband may be fairly frightened - and that's not a comfortable male place to be. I know: we went through it when I had cancer. The Lord will take care of him in this - and we'll all pray for him. It turns out that what's happened to you has also happened to him; it's a "couples" disease, not something that's happened only to you. I know that your husband will learn how to be of support to you and in what ways he'll need to do this. Right now, this is so new to him that he may not know exactly what he needs to do and say for and to you. He will get his bearings and he will come through for you!

Can I just give you a few verses? Psalm 112:7; Isaiah 43:1-2; Deuteronomy 33:27 and 1 Peter 5:6-7 (there are so many others!). A few years ago, I had a major ovarian cancer scare and some of the works of C. H. Spurgeon, where he addresses dealing with physical afflictions, which he had many of, and depression, with which he certainly was afflicted, were of tremendous help to me.

The Lord will never abandon you or your loved ones - of that you can be absolutely sure.

Sure, we have to trust Him with our lives -- we all do... But you're looking at a specific circumstance right now, and I understand that. I myself am here only until my myelodysplasia turns into leukemia. At that time, my doctors' plan is only to make me comfortable because I can't have any more chemotherapy and I can't have any more blood transfusions (have had my lifetime's allotment of both, it seems). I'm cool with it because I'm looking only at Him through that knowledge and that prism of hope... Every day brings a little more "tearing away" from the "hold" I have on this world. I won't say it isn't frightening because yeah, pain is scary. Medical "procedures" are scary - but they don't last forever. Only the peace and the joy and the love and mercy of God last forever! :D We can be content in whatever circumstances we are in because He's there with us and He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Dear Janice, know that both you and your husband are being lifted up in prayer right now - and we will all continue to do so!

Love,

mary

Thank you SO MUCH Mary! I will read the verses. God has been speaking to me this week about how much MORE I need to read His Word.

His exact words were, "Eat it!"

So, getting as full as I possibly can on His Word and His promises.

[mary]

Thank you SO MUCH Mary! I will read the verses. God has been speaking to me this week about how much MORE I need to read His Word.

His exact words were, "Eat it!"

So, getting as full as I possibly can on His Word and His promises.

Yes, Janice, "take and eat..." His Word is His love letter to us and best of all, it's His absolute guarantee of His care and His love for us.

The first One Who's taking care of you right now is God Himself... Doesn't matter what "scientific" lab tests say; doesn't matter what doctors or surgeons say. They're Number Two. No matter their attitude; no matter what they "think" or "predict" - still, they take second place to the Lord's plans for you and your family and for what blessings He means to give you through this experience... As you're His, the blessings that He has planned for you are of an order that He would only give a beloved child of His. The very blessings that He gave to our Lord Jesus Christ in giving Him us! (But He went through an awful lot to get us, didn't He?!)

Praying for you right now, ((((Janice))))!

Love,

mary