Theodora
05-12-2006, 05:36 AM
I see that we've almost been "here" together at the same time. Just wanted to say hi and to tell you that I'll be thinking of you this morning when I attend the memorial Eucharist for a friend from "former days" of singing in a choir with him at another church.
Sort of complicated "stuff"....will see whether I can post more afterwards a bit by way of "de-briefing!"
In any case, I wanted to tell you too that I'd seen your follow-up post re your in-depth grief and the tears you have shed recently. Know that I think I understand.....and.....oddly enough, I'm thankful that you WERE able to allow yourself to go to that in-depth "wailing" kind of grieving pain. Sometimes the struggle NOT to shed the tears can be more than we can really bear. (I'm thinking now, in part, of "Jessica" who was on the "Starting Over" show as I posted on that earlier thread for you.)
Well....must stop and go get a bath and in other ways get ready to "start" my day. In point of fact, I'm sort of running on "fumes" right now, since my insomnia is again very active and I've not slept much in this "night"---now morning!---BUT...for various reasons, I think it's important that I make the effort to attend this service, so...if you'd be so kind, please pray for stamina to get through this and THEN that my session at my massage therapist's this afternoon will get my system re-programmed a bit so I CAN let down and REST!
Courage to you, dear one. We know( or can at least suspect a bit!)...that this is a VERY hard time for you and your loved ones as you remember your dear mother this weekend. Know that I'll be remembering her as well, and will be offering thanksgiving for having been the kind of mother who could give life to a beautiful person such as yourself.
(((((((Willow)))))) -- Keep up the good work in posting and in "processing" all of these complex feelings that come up.
Much love and many prayers--
Theodora
Sort of complicated "stuff"....will see whether I can post more afterwards a bit by way of "de-briefing!"
In any case, I wanted to tell you too that I'd seen your follow-up post re your in-depth grief and the tears you have shed recently. Know that I think I understand.....and.....oddly enough, I'm thankful that you WERE able to allow yourself to go to that in-depth "wailing" kind of grieving pain. Sometimes the struggle NOT to shed the tears can be more than we can really bear. (I'm thinking now, in part, of "Jessica" who was on the "Starting Over" show as I posted on that earlier thread for you.)
Well....must stop and go get a bath and in other ways get ready to "start" my day. In point of fact, I'm sort of running on "fumes" right now, since my insomnia is again very active and I've not slept much in this "night"---now morning!---BUT...for various reasons, I think it's important that I make the effort to attend this service, so...if you'd be so kind, please pray for stamina to get through this and THEN that my session at my massage therapist's this afternoon will get my system re-programmed a bit so I CAN let down and REST!
Courage to you, dear one. We know( or can at least suspect a bit!)...that this is a VERY hard time for you and your loved ones as you remember your dear mother this weekend. Know that I'll be remembering her as well, and will be offering thanksgiving for having been the kind of mother who could give life to a beautiful person such as yourself.
(((((((Willow)))))) -- Keep up the good work in posting and in "processing" all of these complex feelings that come up.
Much love and many prayers--
Theodora