hornblower
03-01-2006, 05:58 PM
Thankyou so much for replying to me. You were all such a help and I greatly appreciate it. As the day has rolled on by I am beginning to piece these things together about that dream. I cant really remember all of the dream except that I know I was being hunted and there was fear and I was scared of being murdered.
So now let me tell you how my day went to explain more. To begin with right before I went to sleep last night before that dream, I had another huge argument with my daughter. Sooner or later I always feel so guilty for these arguments. She called me this morning to ask me to forgive her. Bless her heart. Still though I shouldnt have gotten that mad at her.
Next thing is though Ive been really praying the last few days...getting back to the Lord. Part of that is repenting, always is for me anyway.
I went to have my hair done today and out it all came right there to my Christian hairdresser. "Im so tired of sinning over and over again, getting angry at my daughter and basically here's the problem........she is sick, and I dont want to believe that she is! Its like Im forever in denial! I want her to be normal. I want to have a normal relationship with her and thats impossible because she isnt normal, she is sick." My poor hairdresser just agreed with me she didnt know what to say.
Thats the stress and its always there. Maybe its better now thank God, because she isnt living with us, but then we worry about her and the stress is always back again...................whats next??? Its always something happening.
Then, would you believe, when I came home and I was praying and trying to seek God and He was there for me too, telling me He loves me and there isnt anything wrong and dont worry just go ahead and fix dinner.............Lighten up He was saying to me.
What did I do?:(
I got online and tried to find that church that hurt me so much about my daughter, Just to see if that same pastor and his wife were there, hoping that they were far gone and truthfully, although I really DONT want anything bad to happen to anybody.........I kind of was hoping they were not doing what they were doing and that maybe, just maybe they could have just a little of my pain too! Yikes! :eek:
Ha, Of course they dont even advertise, dont have a web site, of course. I should already have figured that, so theres no way to tell whats happening with them.
What a silly lady I am.:o
I still know that I dont have an answer for what to do about my daughter and the way I keep shutting out the fact that she is sick and I get mad at her when she makes these irresponsible decisions.:mad:
Anyway yes my Mom was plenty strange and I sure do miss that little lady. I can tell you now my Mother was a victim rape and had never told a single soul until God healed us to the point that she opened up and told me. She did and said many strange things to me when I was young.......hurt me to the core.
If only all of us could be healed as much as I have been and my Mother was too, just by doing just what we do here..........opening up with Gods help and letting someone else love us and talk to us.
Thankyou all so much and please pray for me about these spells with my pooer daughter. I should respoind wiser than I do but its a journey isnt it? God isnt finished with me yet.:D
Oh Lord He has done so many wonderful things in my life.
So now let me tell you how my day went to explain more. To begin with right before I went to sleep last night before that dream, I had another huge argument with my daughter. Sooner or later I always feel so guilty for these arguments. She called me this morning to ask me to forgive her. Bless her heart. Still though I shouldnt have gotten that mad at her.
Next thing is though Ive been really praying the last few days...getting back to the Lord. Part of that is repenting, always is for me anyway.
I went to have my hair done today and out it all came right there to my Christian hairdresser. "Im so tired of sinning over and over again, getting angry at my daughter and basically here's the problem........she is sick, and I dont want to believe that she is! Its like Im forever in denial! I want her to be normal. I want to have a normal relationship with her and thats impossible because she isnt normal, she is sick." My poor hairdresser just agreed with me she didnt know what to say.
Thats the stress and its always there. Maybe its better now thank God, because she isnt living with us, but then we worry about her and the stress is always back again...................whats next??? Its always something happening.
Then, would you believe, when I came home and I was praying and trying to seek God and He was there for me too, telling me He loves me and there isnt anything wrong and dont worry just go ahead and fix dinner.............Lighten up He was saying to me.
What did I do?:(
I got online and tried to find that church that hurt me so much about my daughter, Just to see if that same pastor and his wife were there, hoping that they were far gone and truthfully, although I really DONT want anything bad to happen to anybody.........I kind of was hoping they were not doing what they were doing and that maybe, just maybe they could have just a little of my pain too! Yikes! :eek:
Ha, Of course they dont even advertise, dont have a web site, of course. I should already have figured that, so theres no way to tell whats happening with them.
What a silly lady I am.:o
I still know that I dont have an answer for what to do about my daughter and the way I keep shutting out the fact that she is sick and I get mad at her when she makes these irresponsible decisions.:mad:
Anyway yes my Mom was plenty strange and I sure do miss that little lady. I can tell you now my Mother was a victim rape and had never told a single soul until God healed us to the point that she opened up and told me. She did and said many strange things to me when I was young.......hurt me to the core.
If only all of us could be healed as much as I have been and my Mother was too, just by doing just what we do here..........opening up with Gods help and letting someone else love us and talk to us.
Thankyou all so much and please pray for me about these spells with my pooer daughter. I should respoind wiser than I do but its a journey isnt it? God isnt finished with me yet.:D
Oh Lord He has done so many wonderful things in my life.