Must be answered prayer

[Hope 98]

I woke up different this morning - well maybe it was yesterday morning as midnight has passed.

I began to think about how I felt for so long, trying to keep secret the shame and horror of past abuse, and I remembered how God had taken the "sting" out of so much some years ago.

I thought about scars (emotional & physical) - how they remind me of what I've been through in a way that stirs compassion rather than condemnation. Right now I wonder if that's the real goal of healing, to simply move from pain to compassion.

For the first time, in a long time, or maybe for the first time ever, I felt as though I inhabited my own body and I fit into my own skin.

I wish I could express it better, paint a picture, or sing a song...maybe it's just too simple...not that it makes it a bad thing.

I wanted to share, because I don't want to forget.

I also hope that this isn't a temporary sweet spot, but the point where I realize that I've passed through a transition, and I'm firmly settled on the other side.

It's been a good day.

[ex-shep]

[QUOTE=Hope 98]I woke up different this morning - well maybe it was yesterday morning as midnight has passed.

I began to think about how I felt for so long, trying to keep secret the shame and horror of past abuse, and I remembered how God had taken the "sting" out of so much some years ago.



It is a great feeling to come to that point. I have been there quite a few times and it is freeing. One day I was angry at my sister for all the abuse. It suddenly occurred to me that she was just as abused as I was. My thoughts switched from comdemnation to compassion in a microsecond.

Thanks for the ephinany. It surely made my day. :)

[Janice]

I woke up different this morning - well maybe it was yesterday morning as midnight has passed.

I began to think about how I felt for so long, trying to keep secret the shame and horror of past abuse, and I remembered how God had taken the "sting" out of so much some years ago.

I thought about scars (emotional & physical) - how they remind me of what I've been through in a way that stirs compassion rather than condemnation. Right now I wonder if that's the real goal of healing, to simply move from pain to compassion.

For the first time, in a long time, or maybe for the first time ever, I felt as though I inhabited my own body and I fit into my own skin.

I wish I could express it better, paint a picture, or sing a song...maybe it's just too simple...not that it makes it a bad thing.


I think you painted a perfect picture! Cool! very cool! :)

I wanted to share, because I don't want to forget.

I also hope that this isn't a temporary sweet spot, but the point where I realize that I've passed through a transition, and I'm firmly settled on the other side.

It's been a good day.

[gwen]

I thought about scars (emotional & physical) - how they remind me of what I've been through in a way that stirs compassion rather than condemnation. Right now I wonder if that's the real goal of healing, to simply move from pain to compassion.


What a neat post! Thanks so much for sharing, Hope! I rejoice with you in your change! And I do agree that the real goal of healing is to move to compassion.


Love, Gwen