Love you all

[Janice]

Just can't cope...sorry :(

[Voyager]

Janice,

When I left my church, my wife wasn't sure that she wanted to leave. I left anyway. Then she didn't want to go to the church because I wasn't with her. Churches like the one we were in pressure couples to stay in "spiritual unity". It made my wife look bad because I wasn't there with her, so she stopped going too. About three months later, the "lights came on" and my wife figured out that we were in a cult. But sometimes when you're in it, you just can't see it.

I hope things get better for you. I would encourage you to just do what you have to do to make peace with yourself, and don't worry about anyone else right now. I'm truly sorry that you are feeling down right now.

:(

[Voyager]

Whoops - double post.

[Leslie]

Janice,
Is there anything we can do?

[Willow]

(((((((((((((((Janice))))))))))))))

[Janice]

thanks for the hugs. just had to run away for a day.

[Willow]

Sometimes running away temporarily is a good thing to do.

[mstar]

Janice, so sorry.

Had been so "down" since this past Sunday that I could not function for a couple of days. Have pulled out of it and had some good days. I think it was the left over "Sunday mess" and it takes me a while to move on.

It is just hard and I am so sorry you are having a rough time.

Will continue to pray. Bless you!

[Kerrin]

(((((((((Janice)))))))))
I have fallen into my old BAD habits and am now suffering the consequences!
Working like a pack horse , trying to be Super ,"single" mum" and housekeeper etc etc....and anything else I could try and pack in to make my life ,more hectic , chaotic ,and Busy, for everyone else except those who matter!!!

I owe you a profound and HUGE apology!!
I said I would call last Sunday and I forgot that I had organised my work colleagues to go out for dinner!!!
I did NOT forget YOU!!:o

I had my phone and was intending on going outside to call you...............but in trying to bring a group of people together, I did, at the cost of a promise to you!!

I DIDn'T even enjoy myself!
I felt responsible for everyone having a good time!!!
I was stressed the whole night!!

You see, in not talking to you, I missed the point all together!
YOU are my friend, YOU are always here for me and I let you down , trying to please some other people who mean jack..... to me!!!!

I needed to talk to you much much more than I needed to go out with that group of people , (who are not friends).

I was trying to make friends I guess, I've been so lonely for so long..........but it didn't 'click'. It was just work again.
I have nothing in common with any of these people, except one woman, who knew me when I was married to Randy!!!:eek:
I can't tell you how much I wish I could turn back the clock!!!!:( :( :confused:

Sometimes I think my "lonesomeness" will kill me!!

I just don't 'fit" , and I feel like a freak!!

I haven't been on msn because of daylight saving and having to get up at 5 a.m every morning ...........I've been so tired ..........done it again.......dug a hole for myself.
YOU matter a great deal to me Janice , Hope you'll forgive me....:(
(You know you can always text me to call you ;) ).

I pray you are ok.
Love
Kerrin:o

[Janice]

No biggie Kerrin. Don't worry about it.