Going to church

[Janice]

Decided to go to church this morning. Yes..the one I hate.

Will try to move passed everything and just focus in on God. HE"S the only reason I go in the first place.

I pray peace for myself. I pray strength for myself. And I pray His will not mine, be done in my life.

We shall see how it goes. :eek:

[truth]

He will help you today whatever you face and be with you....

I am going somewhere new for the first time.....I will pray for you and I both today...

The service I'm going to is a small supposedly grace-oriented church pastored by a psychologist who is recovery-oriented....

no expectations - some willingness - we'll see....

let us know how you do.

truth

[Janice]

He will help you today whatever you face and be with you....

I am going somewhere new for the first time.....I will pray for you and I both today...

The service I'm going to is a small supposedly grace-oriented church pastored by a psychologist who is recovery-oriented....

no expectations - some willingness - we'll see....

let us know how you do.

truth

Thanks Truth. The service was so/so for me. I tired to move passed & worship but same old stuff. It was almost like they were trying to force the spirit to move.

Hubby was even more dissappointed about the service then I was!! But guess what? He wants to go back tonight hoping he will get what he didn't get this morning.*sigh*...he wants me to go with him. Once was quite enough but I see how upset he was so..I'll do it for him. (and I swore to myself I wouldn't do it for him anymore.)

One of these days maybe I'll learn how to do something just for me.
Yea right. NOT!

[truth]

I hear you, my church service was so-so, too....

nothing horrible; nice people, nice pastor, nice message --- just no love connection - we're not going back.

hubby thing...sometimes you get so tired and weary that even "doing something for me" seems like just another thiing on the "to do list"... instead of something healthy for yourself....

we're all just human and we all get tired....it will get better.

truth

[Leslie]

truth, I was wondering if by "no love connection", you were referring to people not being friendly, or if you were saying it just didn't feel right . . . . I'm curious about what a psychologist preaches on. in church.

Janice, that's good that you and your husband were on the same page about the AM service. You really sound very caring toward your husband, though understandably conflicted about what form your love for him should take, reagrding your church attendance. I hope he doesn't take advantage of your good will in this ("I saw how upset he was . . .and so I'll do it for him "). (Just a thought.)

Blessings,
Leslie

[Janice]

Well, it was about the same for me as the morning service but hubby got very blessed last night. We both had some "alter time". Mine was prayer, prayer, prayer. Hubby said he started to speak in tongues which he said hasn't happened to him in a long time. How can he change so quickly from the morning service to the evening service?????

Interesting though...he was still praying when I got up from the alter and by the time I got back to my pew pastor was right there laying hands on hubby and praying for him. Maybe it was a coincidence but I can't help thinking pastor was waiting for me to leave!

Then..of course...pastor wanted to go get something to eat with us afterwards. I went, and was my cordial self. I swear, one of these days I'm gonna explode on him.

[truth]

Leslie, hi - I'm showing my age here - we used to use that expression when I was single and we'd go out with a guy and he was nice, nice-looking, essentially nothiing wrong with him, just no chemistry!

I felt that way about that church - they preaced grace, nice people, nothing really wrong - just no chemistry there for me....

and yeah, I was interested too to hear how a psychologist would preach...I was hoping it would be like alot of the good teaching I've now been exposed to in the books like the author of this website, Cloud and Townsend, applying the Bible in an emotionally healthy way.....and it sort of was but I think the main problem was that the pastor is a good psychologist but without the natural gifting of a true pastor so the message came across as too intellectual and dry without, at least I felt, the depth of revelation a true pastor might get -- it was almost like a book report...

so- live and learn - keep testing the waters....

truth

[Janice]

Can't belive I am so jealous and angry that hubby got blessed. He is very happy today and seems like a different man.
*sigh*. I ready to quit even looking for another church an go now here and just let him have his little happy "family reunion" without me.

[Leslie]

Janice, I think I understand your reaction. Your husband's favorable experience sets "moving elsehwere" back a few steps. Am I wrong or is he pretty up and down about that church? That'd be pretty emotionally exhausting for you!

[Janice]

Janice, I think I understand your reaction. Your husband's favorable experience sets "moving elsehwere" back a few steps. Am I wrong or is he pretty up and down about that church? That'd be pretty emotionally exhausting for you!

Yes Leslie, you're right and it's terribly exhausting!