well, it's now 3:45 am

[Janice]

and I've been up fpr the last hour. I had an awful dream!! I dreamt hubby left me for another woman. I was crying & begging him to stay and he said, "now you know how it feels!!!".

I awoke crying. Hubby woke up & wanted to know what was wrong so I told him about my dream. He said it was just a dream and that he's not going anywhere and to go back to sleep but, I couldn't. I've just now stopped crying.

Writing out my feelings last night and reading that devotional was not a good thing for me. I went to bed shortly after I wrote that. Must have been on the very surface of my mind. I've got to learn how to keep these feeling inside!!!!!!!! It hurts so much to let them out!!!!!!

Sad thing about it is....I couldn't blame him for leaving me. I wouldn't want to live with me either.

So, I've started the coffee pot, took some medicine, and I guess I'm up for the day *sigh*. Gonna be al ong one!

[Emerging]

Writing out my feelings last night and reading that devotional was not a good thing for me. I went to bed shortly after I wrote that. Must have been on the very surface of my mind.
(((Janice))), nightmares really stink!! They are NO fun at all!!! .... but they are our subconsciousness' way of dealing with issues. So they are actually a good thing, in telling us what we fear and etc. ... but... sigh!!! I think you are RIGHT ON when you notice that things were soooo much more turbulent because of journaling right before bed .... sooooo.... maybe journaling earlier in the day would be more helpful?

I WISH I had more time for a fuller response right now! Since I don't, please know that my sad experience is that the only way to get past the pain ... is *through* the pain. waaaa!!

PRAYERS for you continue!! ... I've been where you now are and was SO sad there that I'm PRAYING for you to be buoyed up with love and support and be gently led OUTTA there!!! ... to "green pastures ... besides still waters" :o :p :)

[Oopsie Daisey]

and I've been up fpr the last hour. I had an awful dream!! I dreamt hubby left me for another woman. I was crying & begging him to stay and he said, "now you know how it feels!!!".

I awoke crying. Hubby woke up & wanted to know what was wrong so I told him about my dream. He said it was just a dream and that he's not going anywhere and to go back to sleep but, I couldn't. I've just now stopped crying.

Writing out my feelings last night and reading that devotional was not a good thing for me. I went to bed shortly after I wrote that. Must have been on the very surface of my mind. I've got to learn how to keep these feeling inside!!!!!!!! It hurts so much to let them out!!!!!!

Sad thing about it is....I couldn't blame him for leaving me. I wouldn't want to live with me either.

So, I've started the coffee pot, took some medicine, and I guess I'm up for the day *sigh*. Gonna be al ong one!


Gosh Janice, things like that happen in my life all the time and keep me paralyzed. SO glad you shared with your husband because I think that was wise to take the winds out of fears sails.

[Jerry]

Sad thing about it is....I couldn't blame him for leaving me. I wouldn't want to live with me either.

Dear Janice,,,
You are egotistical,,,,,,,,you have low self esteem,,,,you are spiritual,,,,,,you are earthly,,,,,,,,,you are loving,,,,,,,you are hateful,,,,,,,you are happy,,,,,,,you are sad,,,,,,,,you are hardworking,,,,,,,,you are lazy,,,,,,,,you are all of these things,,,,,,and none of these things,,,,,you are an enigma,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,you are HUMAN ;)
I know how men think,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,I are one :D ,,,,,,,,,,,,If he said it was a dream,,,,,,,,go back to sleep,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,then he loves you,,GO BACK TO SLEEP!!!!!
Love Jerry

[Jerry]

Dear Janice
I suspect that your husband sees you like my wife sees me......We have been together a long time now....All my inconsistancies,,,,,,my annoying habits,,,,,my terriable blunders,,,,all the things that no one can know and still love me,,, she knows......And now some kind grace within her allows her to see me,,,,,,,,even when her eyes are open ;)
Love Jerry