jane
08-22-2005, 08:00 AM
Well, the human resources director called my husband at work last Thursday.
Off the record of course so this has me worried. He told Tony that they are going to offer me the postition as soon as Affirmative Action reviews their goals and approves of my starting.
I had to wait for this before and it was nerve racking. The goals are always changing. Hopefully I will met their goals and get the official offer. He did tell my husband that the panel loved me and that I was their first choice. That made my bruised ego feel better- it wasnt' my best interview but I did what voyager said and told them my heart.
He told my husband that I would start on Labor day weekend, saturday. Looks to me like a regular may be due for a holiday weekend ;) but that is fine by me.
So here is the interesting dilema, why is it that my insides are still an emotional mess?
I am thinking, "they are really not going to hire me. he just told Tony that to save his relationship with Tony but he is going to use the affirmative action to tell me I am not hired."
My husband and I talked about this ALL weekend. Too many times our pastor's wife would say, "jane, I love you" and then...... well, you know the stories....
I have become so paranoid and distrusting. I think everyone is nice to my face and going to put the knife in my back.
I can only pray for sanity to return to my life.... sanity and hope.
Please pray that affirmative action stamps their approval on my job offer and it becomes official (before I damage the wood floors from pacing ;) ).
and for healing of our paranoid distrusting minds in this home.
jane
Off the record of course so this has me worried. He told Tony that they are going to offer me the postition as soon as Affirmative Action reviews their goals and approves of my starting.
I had to wait for this before and it was nerve racking. The goals are always changing. Hopefully I will met their goals and get the official offer. He did tell my husband that the panel loved me and that I was their first choice. That made my bruised ego feel better- it wasnt' my best interview but I did what voyager said and told them my heart.
He told my husband that I would start on Labor day weekend, saturday. Looks to me like a regular may be due for a holiday weekend ;) but that is fine by me.
So here is the interesting dilema, why is it that my insides are still an emotional mess?
I am thinking, "they are really not going to hire me. he just told Tony that to save his relationship with Tony but he is going to use the affirmative action to tell me I am not hired."
My husband and I talked about this ALL weekend. Too many times our pastor's wife would say, "jane, I love you" and then...... well, you know the stories....
I have become so paranoid and distrusting. I think everyone is nice to my face and going to put the knife in my back.
I can only pray for sanity to return to my life.... sanity and hope.
Please pray that affirmative action stamps their approval on my job offer and it becomes official (before I damage the wood floors from pacing ;) ).
and for healing of our paranoid distrusting minds in this home.
jane