What Have I Done

[pblondeau46]

What have I done?

I posted recently about what I have been going through. I received replies from 2 people!!!

I try to support others and show kindness to others in their time of need.

Maybe I need to find another support forum?

I don't know............it upsets me..............then it angers me............I want to say who needs you anyway!!!

I know that is not right, but right now I do feel angry.

Sorry, I know this is like trying to force the issue. But I need to say how I feel........... :(

[Kerrin]

:confused: :(

I'm here Pauline.
I value every single thing you have to say.
You are wise ,compassionate and strong.
please talk to me. :o
Love
Kerrin :o

P.S it's 2a.m though and I 'm off to bed............I'll look for you tomorrow though :(

[pblondeau46]

Sorry, three people......

[Kerrin]

Pauline,
If you read my post about new beginnings on the 17th on this Forum .........no-one replied!!

Love
Kerrin ;)

[butterfly]

Pauline, I am sorry you are going thru this bad time. I did read your post and was praying for you and your sister. Sometimes I start to reply to a post and then delete them because I think what I wrote was nothing anybody would want to read anyway. :( [ It's just comes from some old wounds inside me that makes me think this.] I am new here and sometimes I think I am an outsider and I should just read not replay. No one has made me feel that way it is just me. I also have been the strong one in the family. That is not a easy thing to do sometimes. Well I just want you to know I might not post but I do pray and think of everone on this forum. My husband had a stroke so I know how hard it is too deal with an illness. Plus the hospital. [[[[[pauline]]]]] I have a dear friend named Pauline she is 90 years old. She is a blessing to me I do not know what I would of done without her prayers for me and my family. When she was 80 we were still going blueberry picking. It was real bushy place we went to our secret place we would say. :) :) everone knew the place from town. I would pray Lord please do not let her fall or get sick here. It would be so hot and she would go right in the bushes to her spot. Well I was thankful when we got to the car. I told her Pauline if something ever happens to you your family they will get mad at me. She would say if I die here I will be doing something I love. butterfly

[pblondeau46]

Thank-you butterfly, Kerrin.

It's true people don't post for lots of reasons. I am taking it personally.

I guess I should know better than to have expectations of people because everytime that I do I am sorely disappointed. It's like God saying...........what have I told you? Do not put your trust in man! You think I would have learned by now. nope.........God is quick to remind me though.

Love and blessings to all. ;)

[Satscout]

Hey Pauline,

Just wanted to let you know... I read, I pray... sometimes I post...

but I'm lazy... it's a lot easier to post if the words come to me right away while I'm reading... sometimes I don't have words, and I file it away in that place where the Holy Spirit has "groanings which cannot be uttered". I know that doesn't help much as far as responses are concerned, tho.

Courage, dear heart...

Sharon

[jane]

Pauline,

I read this, then I went to the post about your sister and looked; and there was no post from me, I AM REALLY CONFUSED because I remember talking to you about your sister. Didnt' I or did I imagine it?

No, I know that I did. It must have been deleted.

I know this much, it seems like after the Mike thing a lot of people haven't been posting, I haven't seen voyager or jerry for a while. And Reg golfs in the summer. Anyway, I don't think it is about you, I think the Mike thing (no matter which side that they were on) caused a lot of people to stay away for a little while.

((((Pauline))))

[Theodora]

Pauline,

I read this, then I went to the post about your sister and looked; and there was no post from me, I AM REALLY CONFUSED because I remember talking to you about your sister. Didnt' I or did I imagine it?

No, I know that I did. It must have been deleted.

I know this much, it seems like after the Mike thing a lot of people haven't been posting, I haven't seen voyager or jerry for a while. And Reg golfs in the summer. Anyway, I don't think it is about you, I think the Mike thing (no matter which side that they were on) caused a lot of people to stay away for a little while.

((((Pauline))))

Wasn't that reply on the NACR forum??? I'm confused too!

Pauline---I've posted some response to you in my own post this p.m. on NACR and had given you a direct response on NACR.

Forum interaction is ALWAYS somewhat of a mystery to me, regardless of whether we've just been through a "storm" as we have. Two suggestions from me...and perhaps a comment:

1) If you find that your comments in responding to another's post are becoming more about your own situation, do consider posting a separate post with a new title. As Kerrin noted with the thread which Yahshea started, it was becoming very difficult to follow. Sometimes updates are "lost" in that way. I know that wasn't the case with this post where you had a clear, separate heading, but I thought it might help to offer this suggestion.

2) If you ARE particularly in need of a response, do feel free to say so! Sometimes people are in a hurry and just browse the updates without taking the time to respond. I DO understand how much it hurts to have it feel like you're being "ignored" when you're already in so much pain. Sometimes I just post an "acknowledgement" with the hope that I'll be able to post more "later." Unfortunately, for various reasons, I'm not always able to follow through on good intentions, but that doesn't mean that you're not being thought about!

A comment...sometimes it's REALLY hard to "know what to say"---so people don't say anything. This is true of people that we meet face to face, but it seems to be particularly true when we can rest in anonymity...we think! Obviously, silence isn't ALWAYS "golden!"

In any case, though it's hard to do this at times, please don't assume the worst or that people don't care! The lines of communication here are sometimes fragile, but they DO still exist.

Grace and peace to you and yours this day. You are in my prayers, per your request, as I request your prayers as well. (If interested, see my two Sat. posts on NACR re more tests needed for me, as well as a general update under "Quiet here...." (And there, I did NOT have a good subject heading, so would sort of expect that there wouldn't be many responses. In the "live and learn" category, it occurs to me that perhaps it would be best if I wrote my subject heading AFTER I found out where my rambling would take me so that you'd have a better idea of what the content of the post might be! Siiiiiiiiigh! :o :p )

Hang in there! And THANKS for "being here" and reaching out.

Theodora

:)

[pblondeau46]

Pauline,

I read this, then I went to the post about your sister and looked; and there was no post from me, I AM REALLY CONFUSED because I remember talking to you about your sister. Didnt' I or did I imagine it?

No, I know that I did. It must have been deleted.

I know this much, it seems like after the Mike thing a lot of people haven't been posting, I haven't seen voyager or jerry for a while. And Reg golfs in the summer. Anyway, I don't think it is about you, I think the Mike thing (no matter which side that they were on) caused a lot of people to stay away for a little while.

((((Pauline))))

Yes you did answer me Jane. I put my posts on both forums because some don't read the Spiritual abuse side.

I appreciate your support and your kindness.

I'm better today.........just was feeling a little stressed the other day.

;)

[jane]

HEHEHEHEHE Now I see.

See, that is why I never went over to that thread.


Sorry. I haven't figured out that things can be there and here yet, I'll get there though.


(((()))))

Jane

[Jerry]

Sorry I missed you sweetie,,,,,,,,I been busy with work the last 3-4 days and my back is givin me fits,,,,,,but i'll be on and off tonight ,,,,,,,,ping me if ya want
:D
Love Jerry

[pblondeau46]

Thanks Jerry, I'm okay now.

Take care of your back, Okay?

Glad you are getting the work though!

[Voyager]

Pauline,

I have been away from the forum for a few days. I am sorry that I didn't reply to your post. Sometimes it's hard to know what to say. I wish I would have been able to encourage you somehow. I am glad you are feeling better.

:cool: