To Reg

[Kerrin]

Reg,
I felt my comments about Neil Anderson were harsh...........it's been bothering me.
In light of ALL that has been happening to me of late, and the fact that it is 2a.m here and I can't sleep, I felt iI need to repent.
God gave me a job, and I repeated a pattern.
An Addiction I guess.
So, I picked up one of Neil Anderson's books."Overcoming Addictive Behaviour"
I think herin lies the key to my "stuckness" when it comes to jobs!


All things happen for a reason.I said in my other post about "co-incidence!", none of this is co-incidence.
It's the Lord again trying to heal me, while I try to blame everyone around me.

Yes, I am capable and competent in my work.
But I'm addicted to "failure" and "blame"
I am sorry dear God.
I repent and seek your forgiveness and your face.
That's my public confession.

I thank the Lord for using you ,Reg, To draw my attention to this particular book which has hit a 'nerve'.

My prayer now is, I will move on........

Always,
Kerrin ;)

Proverbs23:29-30
"Who has woe? Who has sorrow? Who has contentions?
Who has complaining? Who has wounds without cause?
Who has redness of eyes? Those who linger over wine,those who go to taste mixed wine" ( Quote from page 7 of "Overcoming Addictive Behaviour", Neil T Anderson.)

[Reg]

I thank the Lord for using you ,Reg, To draw my attention to this particular book which has hit a 'nerve'.

Hi Kerrin,

I didn't mean to ignore you. I just got back from the cottage and noticed this. BTW, for all those who are a bit newer to this forum, I am usually away on the weekends. Additionally, I don't post very much in the summer months because of my other addiction - GOLF! :D

I find this quite amazing. I had no idea it would affect you like this. Yes, God can use us in ways we are not even aware of. Glad to see you are sensitive to His Spirit.

[Voyager]

But I'm addicted to "failure" and "blame"
I am sorry dear God.
I repent and seek your forgiveness and your face.

Why blame yourself for disagreeing with something? Just because you disagree doesn't mean you have failed, nor should you have to blame yourself for it. For so long, I was programmed to believe that if I disagreed with the "man of God" (or "woman of God" in my case), I was being rebellious. Hogwash. If you disagree with something, then by God - stick by your guns and make a stand. That's the only way you will ever break the over-sensitivity that comes from being brainwashed by a controlling dictator. It's okay to have your own opinion. In fact, it's very healthy.

I know how you feel Kerrin. For many years after leaving my former abusive church, I was afraid to disagree with anyone. Then when I did, I felt like I was a rebel. It felt like I was being evil! I had been taught for so long that disagreeing with anything was wicked - especially when it was "backed by Scripture". When I first started asserting my own opinion, it was very awkward. When someone didn't like my opinion, I would either become very defensive or go to the other extreme and "repent" from it. At times I would feel horrible for the rest of the day - even if it was a disagreement on an anonymous forum!

Please understand that I am not coming against Reg - I think he is a great person, and I love him as a brother. Do we always agree on everything? No. But I know that he means well and that he is a very loving and compassionate person. He sticks to his guns, and I respect him for that. I stick to mine also, and I believe he respects me for it too. People have a tendency to respect people who stand up for themselves and for what they believe - even if they disagree. Don't beat yourself if you're not there yet. It's something that can be learned - I know because I learned it.

Love ya!

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